If love were liquid it would drown me,
In a placeless place would find me,
In a heart shape come around me and then,
Melt me slowly down,
If love were human it would know me,
In a lost space come and show me,
Hold me and control me and then,
Melt me slowly down,
Like chocolate.
Thursday, March 30, 2006
MISINTERPRET THIS POST FOR ALL I CARE.
COS I'VE HAD ENOUGH.
STOP PLAYING ME LIKE THIS.
I'M SICK OF HAVING TO LIVE MY LIFE LIKE THAT.
BLOODY HELL SHADDUP.
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8:55 PM
Tuesday, March 28, 2006
novocaine
You can take back all your secrets We'll divide up all the lies Keep all the pictures in their frames Cut me out, yeah, I'll be fine Tell the neighbors all my feelings Go on and give away my pride It's hard to laugh and cry, live and die every night Keep your rolodex of friends And all the remnants can be mine I guess there'll be no happy endings When "once upon" is doing time There's a different kind of meaning now To livin' on a prayer Some don't seem to notice And the rest don't seem to care I tell myself I (feel no pain) But I'm feeling the pain (walk away) Can't walk away I'm hanging on the ropes of hope It's getting hard to cope you know When you're the needle running through my veins I've changed my name to novocaine You put my favorite belongings in a box in the garage (let's get this straight) You burned my favorite sweats from high school Tried to sell my muscle car (that's not OK) You're mother's gonna visit for a couple months this year They say you do the crime, do the time It's all so clear I tell myself I (feel no pain) But I'm feeling the pain (walk away) Can't walk away I'm hanging on the ropes of hope It's getting hard to cope you know When you're the needle that's running through my veins I've changed my name to novocaine (feel no pain) Novocaine Well things ain't what they used to be It's a sleepless, self-help century Man, I'm up to here with Dr. Phil and the modern man in me... I tell myself to (feel no pain) But I'm feeling the pain (walk away) Can't walk away I'm hanging on the ropes of hope It's getting hard to cope you know When you're the needle that's running through my veins I've changed my name to novocaine (feel no pain) Novocaine Novocaine (feel no pain) Novocaine I feel no pain
[what a psychotic coincidence, and irony too, of how i wrote my last entry. maybe that's how life is - a boomberang. it'll always come back to you. ever thought how things might be easier if you jus leave, run, & escape? i never believed in that. i believe in standing my ground.]
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10:21 PM
Monday, March 27, 2006
the coach has spoken.
today was the 1st time that i went to the far-side of ecp to train with the team. which technically shouldn't be the case cos it only goes to show how many trgs i've missed in a row. ack. happened to meet Boon, my obs instructor last year, while jogging back to sch. erm, i kinda jus called out his name and he was like 'eh, hello!' goodness knows if he still remembers me. lol.
azrul made the team cut today as well. and i really thank my lucky stars that i'm still in it for the top 20, considering my horrendous turn-up for trgs this year. reminds me of certain unpleasant memories from last year, when i had to make the team cut myself. i realise that my experience in the team is more unique than any other player, having gone thru quite a bit more than the rest. most of which i went thru on my own too. however, the team is now a unit, so i'm sure it'll be easier for the rest to cope with setbacks. good for them. :) maybe it's the fact that i've seen so much of such stuff happening that i've grown to be numb to them alr.
so, from 28 (approx), the com team has been cut to 24 (23 initially due to some cock-up by azrul). this team will be further cut to form the top 20, which will compete in the tournament. 11 people will be on the pitch at any game, 2 of which are wingers, and another 2 being strikers. yet, there is only 1 captain on the field. now, try calculating the probability that i can retain my place as captain of the team. eek. it's gonna take a hell lot of effort to get there. i wish not to think so far. at least for now. i'm tired from trg.
(if the post seems disjointed, it's probably cos i'm tired & my random-but-relevant thoughts are pretty much all over the place. heh. :p)
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10:32 PM
Sunday, March 26, 2006
Happiness to the power of 3 :)
*whee* we won in yesterday's game against NUS 2-0!! thanks to the goals from jing jing and a BRILLIANT save from farah. really proud of my junior for pulling off such a great debut save. :) only thing that marred the match for me was the fact that i was late. damn. was so angry with myself, and scared that i wouldn't be able to play. thankfully i still got to run on the pitch so i tried to make up for it with better play. i didn't score as striker tho, but it was a good game for me i would say. heh. :) shall look forward to playing more of such games. oh wait, that is, more of such games without getting another bruised rib! :p
jus got good news abt the soccer team. $150 'donation' and that we're not playing league style for the tournament. SO EXCITING!! :)
another happy happy thing is that i got a froggie bag!! it's really nice and doesn't look THAT kiddish (maybe only to me. heh) but oh what the heck abt what others think. so there. lol. shall carry it out for soccer games. perfecto. :) :)
ok, so it seems everything's going pretty well. if only i wouldn't be put to 'agony' by *some pple*. lol. but then again, nothing's gonna keep me down really. :p
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Friday, March 24, 2006
lol.
came to school this morning and was asked to take over for traffic duty. lol. traffic duty is like my once-in-6-months morning duty lah! lol. feels funny to wear the overly-big oven mitts and BRIGHT vest. i think i look damn funny in it also. was stoning at the zebra-crossing cos i was no used to doing traffic and was distracted by everything around me. lol. thankfully never kena knocked down. phew.
a guitar jus fell and knocked john's head while he's sleeping in the council room. ouch. poor thing.
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3:31 PM
Thursday, March 23, 2006
pseudo-rant entry.
this was supposed to be yet another rant entry in light of all the things that have been bugging and bombarding me these few days. but THANKFULLY i found a good listening ear (in the form of sms) in atiqah. i don't really have the habit of ranting more than 2 or 3 times over the same thing so i'm not gonna start now cos enough said. anyone wishing to know more can jus ask me directly lah-huh. yup, thank you tiq for the hugs. here's one back: (for whenever you need it) -hugs- :)
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10:11 PM
Wednesday, March 22, 2006
rah. (council - president/room/weddings) :p
ok, i initially wanted to write this post on a lighter note. but i've been having some stuff weighing me down at the back of my head today and it didn't help that i jus read something that was not-so-good in relation to it. maybe i worry too much. or maybe i took the wrong thing for granted. hai.
enough of that. ANYWAY. wanna write this post to congratulate the 4 presidential candidates for the 23rd students' council! they are (in alphabetical order):
wah ha. now here's the part i like. the council room ad-hoc has been re-activated! *yay* ok, so it's an unofficial ad-hoc and no one has ever heard of it. but hey, i'm proud that we're the 1st such ever ad-hoc and the smallest COMPLETE one too!
overall i/c: me!
vice i/c: hwei san!
committee member: lay queen!
EXCO attached: atiqah!
well, guess it means more work for me now. but more fun too! *whee* we rock, gals! :) :)
shall jus mention something funny that me, charlene, queen and grace were talking abt in the council room. heh. we were suaning rachel that if she should get married to a *certain* ct councillor, here's what will happen:
venue: sch hall (chairs to be moved by sc, ctc, house comm, odac)
decor: odac
food/cocktail reception: zhixin
emcee: shikin
welcome party: house comm
dinner & programme: SDD ad-hoc
probably can recruit PA or band for music too. lol. realised how efficient the councillors have become in organising such events. of cos, this can probably apply to any other SC-CT or intra/inter-SC marriages. *hint hint to those reading this* HAHA. jus kiddin, jus kiddin!! :p
okie, this post has been a whole lot of listings. should stop now. heh. me. out. :p
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9:40 PM
Sunday, March 19, 2006
disney on ice - pure magic!
joy to the world, all the boys and girls. joy to the fishes in the deep blue sea, joy to you and me!
oh man. disney on ice was magical. it brings back so many childhood memories. the good old animations that had beautifully composed music, and enchanting stories to tell. what more could a kid ask for? from the skating stunts, to the special effects, to the costumes, to the props, to the music, to the organisation of the show itself. awesome. walt disney was a man of amazing dreams. :) :)
hello again to my dear old friends:
princes and princesses - cinderella - snow white - beauty and the beast - little mermaid - aladdin - pochahontas
classics - it's a small world - mickey mouse band
characters - mickey mouse & gang - the chipmunks - the lion king - toy story - mulan - finding nemo - pinocchio - jiminey cricket - aladdin - the incredibles
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Saturday, March 18, 2006
nothing's gonna change my love for you.
this march holidays is certainly one of the worst holidays i've ever had. and yet, the experiences that i've gone through were the most enriching. if i could take away only 1 thing i've learnt this hol, then i would definitely keep with me the renewed belief that what i've done so far was right in more ways than one.
elects' camp. soccer camp. thank you, to lay queen, my dear faci partner, to all the other councillors for your support throughout the camp. to the soccer girls (pele!) for showing me that it was, after all, not a mistake on my part in starting the cca.
sure, my place as president in the soccer team may have faded somewhat. however, i am glad that i still have a place in the team. it didn't matter abt my position anymore. it was heartening enough to see the soccer girls, bonding together as a team and standing on their own feet, regardless of skill or age. for some i know, they've fought hard to be in the team. for others, they now carry the job of bringing the team to greater heights. in any case, they've all found their place in vj, the girls' soccer team.
really admire the soccer girls, especially aft hearing abt the gauntlet activity. i wasn't there, for which i apologise. but to see all of you returning to the camp today in high spirits was inspirational to me. *respect* lol...30 girls dunking (rolling!) azrul into the sea! classic. we rock man! :)
of course, i wouldn't forget the councillors. they're a unique bunch of pple who never fail to entertain me, support me, and inspire me. elects' camp was a good proof of it. the council family. sounds good, doesn't it? heh. :p mass dance, cheering, singing the council song. being tired in elects' camp never felt so good. the juniors have certainly brought the seniors together too. :)
on an ending note to this entry, i'd like to say that in whatever way i've described soccer and council to be as written above, or in any other entry, i can never really quite diffentiate which is more impt to me. each is unique in their own way, and i can only strive to strike a balance between the two. it is not easy, but as what you all out there have shown me over the 2 camps, nothing is quite impossible, and it is definitely worth my while. :) nil sine labore.
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11:06 PM
Thursday, March 16, 2006
living hell.
[killer exhaustion]
the state of mind where one is physically-, mentally-, & emotionally-exhausted to the point where:
the eyes are open, but they don't see.
the ears hear, but they don't listen.
the mind works, but it doesn't think/recall.
the muscles move, but is not coordinated.
the hands touch, but they don't feel.
===================================
living hell. that's how the sch compound looks to me. it seems to be closing in on me. stress. scared. i don't wanna go back anymore. run. but my head hurts so bad. it burns. some monster is taking over me. i dunno what i'm thinking. i dunno what i'm doing. sleep. but my body goes numb. i awake from a sleep so deep that i'm glad i'm still able to wake up. it is so hard to keep up with all the rest. no matter how hard i try. a robot. numb. without feelings. yet i broke down. i blew up. the irony. but that was how confused i felt.
thank you azrul. for giving me a break. thank you to the rest of the team. for all your encouragements. really appreciate it. see ya in training soon.
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10:08 PM
Sunday, March 12, 2006
that's what friends are for
little froggie sat and stared at the world going by... ...for 2 hours at dover mrt. oh well, that's what friends are for. jus glad that the wait was for a worthy friend. :)
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Saturday, March 11, 2006
roller-coaster ride.
- disappointed at my lack of self-control at council pre-camp - disappointed at missing the ntu adm faculty tour
i'm sorry. i don't know why but some things happen and i jus react that way. i'm tired of being high, low, high, low all day but i jus can't seem to control myself. maybe i jus need a rest. a break. before i really breakdown. may i survive the 3 days of elects' camp and 3 days of soccer camp.
Do you want me
Like i want you
Or am i standing still
Beneath the darkened sky
Or am i standing still
With the scenery flying by
Or am i standing still
Out of the corner of my eye
Was that you passing me by
[answers were found but i'm lost in finding solutions.]
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9:48 PM
Thursday, March 09, 2006
a path & the flowers
A garden path lies ahead, Lined with rows of pretty flowers. Did you walk down, stopping occasionally to smell the flowers? Or did you turn, and walk down another path?
Did you find a sweet-smelling flower? Did you pick it up? Did you even dare pick it up? Watch out! Some have thorns!
Did the flower you pick wilt? Or did you get hurt by the thorns? Was the flower the right one? Or did you realise it didn't seem to smell sweet anymore?
Perhaps you liked many of the flowers. So many that you wanna take them all. Picking one seems hard. But you can't hold so many either.
The path represents your life and where you stand now. The flowers could mean anything important to you. Friendship. Love. The people around you. Your goal in life. It all lies in what you do, and how you look at it.
Pray tell me, do you see the path in a different light now?
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7:11 PM
Wednesday, March 08, 2006
v is for victoria (victory!)
oh man oh man oh man, we finally won our 1st proper field match! played a friendly against SRJC today and we won 4-0! certainly a big boost for the team moral (esp the yr 2s...heh). it was really nice to see everyone cheering on for the whole team.
a few highlights of the game:
-jingjing scored twice, once in the 1st third and the other in the 3rd third. jaslyn scored a nice one too, while steph scored from a penalty. (HA! 4 goals, i can laugh my socks off at that you-know-who!)
-oh oh, must mention the part where one of the opponents literally bounced off vivian and the both of them fell and rolled on the floor. it sounds mean to say this but it looks really funny from the sidelines. lol. good on you viv.
-charmaine gave a fantastic kick on the ball that went like past the halfway line! good gracious.
anyway, it was all in all a good game. the year 1s gained new experience and everyone felt good winning. congrats & good effort everyone! only flaw was perhaps that claudia and shimin had to leave us. all the best to the both of you! :)
personally a bit disappointed with myself cos i think i was just playing an average game. maybe it was me or maybe it was the lack of chances. think the chances didn't really come in the 2nd third, but i missed a chance or two in the 3rd third. argh. but i did surprise myself in pulling off a split-sec pass to jaslyn while running. hard to describe it here but yea, it definitely wasn't easy. that's the only thing i think was commendable on my part.
met ashish when i left sch:
ash: hey, congrats on your win! 4-0 rite?
me: yea.
ash: so, did you score any goals?
me: no.
ash: what position do you play ah?
me: striker.
wah lao eh, i felt so dumb lah. i mean like, striker and then don't score. -_-" damn it. gotta practise more or else i can't defend my title. worse still to get cut from the team! freak.
anyway, time to put soccer aside for a while. elects camp is coming up and i'm joining the ranks of the facilitators. :) *woohoo* till next thurs, i will not be seen on the field playing soccer.
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9:55 PM
Tuesday, March 07, 2006
mass dance @ suntec
whiney whiney
tribal dance
neutron dance
la bamba
i want you
friendship dance
fun
crazy
fun
crazy
scream
cheer
yell
the best ending to any vjc orientation :) :)
congrats on a job well-done 23rd elects! :D
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10:38 PM
Monday, March 06, 2006
walk on.
a year ago.
a year later.
the pain never healed.
completely.
only time. and faith.
can heal. believe.
flashbacks. memories.
will only make things worse.
loss. i'm immune to it.
disappointed. yes.
but i'm not sad.
i will not crumble.
it is merely a phase of life.
an indication. that we must move on.
it is what you make of it.
that matters.
it hurts. but.
i turn.
i grit my teeth.
and i walk on.
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11:12 PM
Sunday, March 05, 2006
of bachelors and laughing fits
went for the Careers 2006 fair today. it was pretty ok lah, cos i got some decent information abt the course that i want. interactive digital media. animation to be specific. it's so hard to find info on it cos it's a new thing coming up. lol. weird me. anyway, university of new south wales offers this uber cool bachelor of fine arts (animation) and the course only takes 3 years with invitation to honours!! omg omg omg. that's like a dream to me. hai, but cost is a HUGE problem for me. shall mug for a levels 1st before thinking abt stuff like this. heh.
going out with sheryl is <3. laugh and laugh and laugh and laugh and laugh and....what else? laugh. lol. my funny friend and i. think the pple around us must be wondering what maniacs we were. heh. :p hope ntu, nus and smu don't throw us out when we drop by their open houses next week. :p
O2 tomorrow! all the best 23rds! :)
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Saturday, March 04, 2006
facilitators' hike recce!
17 km. >4hrs. HOT HOT SCORCHING SUN. oh gosh, the hike is not gonna just tekan the juniors lah. i think the facilitators themselves are gonna die. shall not elaborate any further in case the juniors chance upon this place. nyeh. *secret* only the 22nds shall know by word of mouth. :p
anyway, suffice to say that the hike has awarded me with a brilliantly red face complete with spectacle tan-marks, and 2 more blisters on my feet. as if yesterday's tan and blister weren't bad enough. hai. hope can recover soon enough for wed's match. :)
stole a peek at our jerseys today. they look pretty good and are definitely better than the OVA ones. heh. can't wait for the numbers to be printed. yay. :D
victorians' day today wasn't really spectacular. guess it was more for the grand-seniors to relive the good ol' days again rather than for the current victorians to come back jus to mass dance. heh.
alright. gotta go and sleep now cos the hike (and trg yesterday) has really got me exhausted and i still have to go out tmr. wouldn't be nice to go out with my best friend when i'm stoned now would it? heh. :p zzz...
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10:02 PM
Friday, March 03, 2006
lobster-fied!
today was a blast! from facilitators' trg session to lunch with san to soccer trg...it's been a long day of non-stop activities. shall start from the morning...
facilitators' trg session was a good learning experience. haha...the morning start alone was good enough. mr chew, mr chad goh, & miss ng put up a fabulous act that tricked some of us into thinking that we had really pissed mr chew off cos we ran off to help mr goh with sth and came back late. gosh, seeing mr chew throw the papers and walk out of the room was kinda scary. nonetheless, everyone had a good laugh over the scenario test (lol...george scrubbing the floor!) and came away with lots of new knowledge abt facilitation. :) on a side-note, i thought mr chew's comment abt finding it hard to imagine me crying cos i seem too fierce was well, interesting. shall take it as a compliment. heh. :p
met san for lunch at suntec marche, together with kevin and her friend cheryl. quite a nice lunch, teased san alot. heh. ate rosti, pasta, pizza, mushroom soup, & teppanyaki meat. yum. too bad had to leave early cos of trg. oh well, but there's plenty of chances to have lunch with san again. heh. HAPPY BIRTHDAY DEAR SAN!! :D
ah, then comes soccer trg. my goodness, 5 full hours of trg! we started at 2.30pm, and trained under the horrendously scorching hot sun for at least 3 hrs. i'm absolutely red in the face, complete with spectacle tan-marks now. hmph. in other word(s), lobster-fied! kinda glad that my fitness didn't deteriorate so much over the common test season. however, got blisters now cos didn't wear boots for a long time alr. lol. but that's fine with me. played attack vs defence & an 11-a-side game. guess what? i was played as MAIN STRIKER! man, that's like my dream position lah! not that i play very well there but it's such a coveted position for me. heh. but then need to adjust to it cos keep playing winger then feels funny to play striker again like what i did when i 1st started out. damn funny when i kept laying off the ball when i got it. thankfully the ball still went in. then azrul was like: "striker supposed to shoot, not pass!" oops. heh. :p
and YES! i've got my desired jersey no. 10. *whee* sorry debra and viv, much as you want the no. too, but i'm the senior and this is my probably my lst chance wearing it. fight it out among yourselves next year yea? :p the fascilitators are going on a 4-hr hike trial tmr. good luck to me cos i'm lobster-fied & blister-fied. hahah. bbq frog anyone? looking forward to the hike and victorians' day tmr. yay. :)
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11:11 PM
Thursday, March 02, 2006
Common tests: DAY 3
ha. so much for all the spectulations abt whether chem test was gonna continue or not today cos of half-day. anyway, it went on as normal, much to my disappointment cos i felt unprepared for it. but then again i don't think i would have done very much better even if the test was postponed cos i kinda lost my motivation to study along the way already. oh well, it wasn't such a bad exchange cos can jus anyhow whack the paper and then gain 2 days of holidays. (*nyeh you yr 1s!) *whee!* it's the end of common tests!! now it's time to plunge back to soccer and council.
speaking of council, i'm extremely thankful that nothing happened to shikin or anyone else in the council room today. know why? shikz climbed up that horrendously tall black ladder and on the way down, the ladder came off the cupboard. luckily she was near the bottom and i was there to hold the ladder and re-latch it on the cupboard. i shuuder at the thought of what might happen if the ladder had gone: "TIMBER!!" yikes. >_<
ooohh..balloting of jersey numbers!! i don't care...no one is to take my number 10 away from me!! :p heh. the next few days should be interesting. *grinz*
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Yap She Fong
23rd Jan 1988
double-two
offically an ADM-er (future animator)
proud alumni of: RMPS | SCGS | VJC
die-hard Liverpool fan
chromosome pair no. 23 of XX
"for-me-to-do/get" list
internship at PIXAR!
more time with my dearies
Pinnacle Studio v10.5 titanium
Edward Scissorhands 20th anniversary edition dvd
animation dvds to watch, and books to read
new songs/CDs to listen to
a cute charming gentleman to call my own (ha! :P)
loves
frogs. my dearies. ADM. 22nd SC. VJSG. animations. shopping. soccer. chocolate. craziness.
staring at the full moon & stars in the night sky
those hour-long phonecalls which feel like only mins-long
all those who love her too <3
spending time with friends & family
can't live without
her computer & laptop
her iRiver mp3 player
her PSP
her 3230 & 5610 nokia hp
her Lumix G1 DSLR
her family and friends <3
