froggie-ology

whee!!

2008-01-23T00:00:00.000+08:00

*whee!!*

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ME!! :) :)

(haha. shameless, as usual. :p)

gosh...i hit the "big" two-oh already! and i realise i actually had the time AND patience to do a series of countdown posts last year. how crazy i was last year....and how much crazier i'm being driven this year. hahaha.

goodbye 2007, hello 2008.

2007-12-31T20:25:00.000+08:00

goodbye 2007, hello 2008.

well, in a few more hours' time, it's gonna be the new year. just thought i'll put another post up, esp when 2007 has been such a quiet year on this blog. heh.

been thinking a bit on what 2007 was to me, and i realise i really ought to be thankful for a year of the most changes & stress, but yet the one that i was most blessed too. (unintended rhyme there. lol.) hahah. yes, i'm sounding emo again i know. am & always will be. :p

so yep, a BIG THANKS to all my dearies for being there for me, whether it was your support for my uni application, your encouragement when i was stress abt work/school, or your love shown in any possible way to me. :) may 2008 be a good blessed year to you dearies in return for all the love!

to everyone else reading this post....a very HAPPY NEW YEAR for 2008 to you too! :)

phew!!!

2007-12-19T00:25:00.000+08:00

*phew!!!*

before i start.....*takes a deep breathe*

ahhhhh....

hahaha. honestly, just as i said in my last post that i shld add a few more posts before a whole truckload of holiday activities come my way, like 3 days later i got myself involved in volunteering at a Singapore Design Festival exhibition for 2 weeks (was involved earlier on alr but din expect it to re-start again so soon!) and yah, after that everything else came crashing along as well. hahaha. hence my blogging intentions were delayed. AGAIN.

anyway, just came back from a prawning outing with my buddies. hahaha. super ex considering we only caught like abt 15 prawns with 4 rods between the 6 of us. and each rod rental was like $26 for 3 hours!! but yah, while waiting for the catch can be rather boring and demoralising (esp when there are prawning pros catching 1 every 3 mins!!!), it's heck lot exciting and scary when the prawn bites! haha. these prawns are HUGE...with pincers!!! so hard to get them off the hook and girls being girls, we were like screaming when we caught the huge ones. think a lot of the pple ard the pond were like -.-". hahaha.

oh oh, and there was this small boy, no more than 8 years old, who was like SO PRO that he'll just grip the prawn with his bare hands and unhook it so easily! he helped me when i caught this super big prawn with pincers twice as long as my fingers! so paiseh lah. cos when i caught it up i was like "oh shit! it's so friggin' big!!!" then the boy, who was standing next to me, looked at me, and i looked back at him...then he calmly reached for the prawn, unhooked it for me, and dumped the prawn into our holding net. so sweet of him!! (and a bit embarrassing for me) lol. :p

my holidays are not looking any less busy from here on out tho, even when the exhibition's done and over with (thankfully!). dance practices, christmas prep, more gatherings, work-study drawings, my one-&-only holiday "assignment" for 2D, driving, and stuff at home that i'm supposed to pack/fix. hahaha. every student knows that the holidays is just a break from school but not a break for resting really. still, i'm enjoying it. :)

out for now, let's see when's the next time i get to sit down & blog again. heh. :p

and if you thought this blog was dead...

2007-11-23T15:20:00.000+08:00

and if you thought this blog was dead...

WELL, I'M BACK!!!

(hahahah. yeah, this blog was never declared dead in the first place. so no excuses for assuming! :p)

i know i know, it's been close to 6 months since i last posted anything, much to the point that i even have my message board (on blogspot) whining back at me abt being mouldy (thanks to a particular goodness-knows-who, no less. lol.)

lemme see, checking the last post i have....that would be when i just started my second job at BNS (Bank of Nova Scotia) and just received news that i got into ADM (art, design & media) at NTU. wow. seems ages ago really. haha. think i ought to explain my absence a bit? ok here goes.

the may-july period was so packed with activites like council stayover at sentosa, 24th investiture, etc....so that was reason no. 1: "TOO MANY STUFF TO BLOG ABT, TOO LITTLE TIME!" hahahah. the "too little time" part also mainly cos my job at BNS pretty much required me to work from 9am till almost 8+pm every weekday, sometimes even needing to work on saturdays and public hols. so you can imagine how much time i had left for my own stuff.

the july-august period was just plain laziness as my excuse lah huh. hahah yes i admit it. ok lah, there was ADM orientation and preparation for uni etc, but cos it was just abt the only time that i have a break after quitting my BNS job and before i start uni, so i was rather lazing around, sleeping >12 hours a day and playing games during whatever's left of the day. hahahah.

then came MADNESS!!

hahaha, no lah. uni started in early august (NTU starts the earliest of the 3 unis) and so from there on out up till now, it's been a crazy 17 weeks of art classes and assignments. not to mention that just as i thought the working hours at BNS was crazy, the working hours at ADM are hysterical cos i pretty much SURVIVE at least half of those 17 weeks on less than 7 hours of sleep everyday. (more on school life in the subsequent posts :)) no prizes for guessing how much time i had left for blogging. heh.

apologies to anyone who relies on this blog for my updates because those who i am close to are usually updated via msn. and looking back at my posts the last one year or so, i realise that quite a number of posts are just an avenue for me to let out my emotions (generally negative), hence with all frustration, stress that i've had the last 6 months, i just didn't want to repeat the process all over again, making my blog such a sad collection of memories. :)

since i'm free now (last of my exams was on the 19th), and before another trainload of holiday stuff come my way, i think i shall post a few posts here soon. hahah. no guarantees really. and pardon me if my posts are rather disorganised or sound different from what i used to write. blogging again aft such a long time feels rather....weird. hahaha. :p

that reminds me. i ought to update my profile page, and the other pages as well. oh, AND put this post up on my lj as well! lol. :p

Everything.

2007-05-05T12:43:00.000+08:00

Everything.

You're a falling star

You're the getaway car

You're the line in the sand

When I go to far

You're the swimming pool

On an august day

And you're the perfect thing to say

And you play it coy but it's kinda cute

Oh when you smile at me you know exactly what you do

Baby don't pretend that you don't know it's true

Cause you can see it when I look at you

And in this crazy life

And through these crazy times

It's you

You make me sing

You're every line

You're every word

You're everything

You're a carousel

You're a wishing well

And you light me up

When you ring my bell

You're a mystery

You're from outer space

You're every minute of my every day

And I can't believe that I'm your man

And I get to kiss you baby just because I can

Whatever comes our way

We'll see it through

And you know that's what our love can do

And in this crazy life

And through these crazy times

It's you

You make me sing

You're every line

You're every word

You're everything

And so la la la la

So la la la la

And in this crazy life

And through these crazy times

It's you

You make me sing

You're every line

You're every word

You're everything

You're every song

And I sing along

Cause you're my everything

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3.5min of pure bliss whenever i hear this song. perfectly the happy content 'lil mood that reflects my mood about what's been happening. makes me feel like a chirpy little bird. hahaha. =p

the wait, is over.

2007-05-04T22:02:00.000+08:00

the wait, is over.

Dear Miss Yap,

Congratulations! The University Admission Selection Committee has approved your application for admission to Nanyang Technological University (NTU) to study in the following course in academic year 2007-08, which commences on 6 August 2007:

DIGITAL ANIMATION

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OMG.OMG.OMG. FINALLY!!! HALLELUJAH!!! =) =) =)
*double-flips in the air*

pardon the rather short post...i'm afraid i might get emo if i continue anymore. heh. >.<
(thanks to all my dearies out there who've been rooting for me. =))

read: LABOUR day.

2007-05-01T23:30:00.000+08:00

read: LABOUR day.

oh gosh, for the 1st time in my entire life, i actually WORKED on a public holiday. okay, well, i do recall going back to school on labour day 2005 to prepare for council investiture but that's different from the corporate world. somemore my bank job is usually a 5-day work week, no shift-kind-of-job, PLUS i'm only a temp staff so i wasn't expecting to be called back on a public holiday. but oh wells, banks being banks, it's understandably more hectic at month-end so guess i can only justify my 'labour' with better pay. hee. =P

actually, i should say that my public-holiday "holiday" really started only in the evening when i joined hwei san & the councillors at minds cafe@boat quay for a night of fun games. =) played "saboteur" and "take-6", which was just about it cos we didn't have much time since the following day was a work-day. sigh. see, the world's evolved to revolve around work now. lectures, tutorials, exams, & trainings seem oh-so-far-away now.

hmm. somehow council gatherings now are usually the same few pple...unsurprisingly so, but hopefully there comes a day when most (i.e. >75%!!) of the 22nd councillors can meet up again. =)

the first of things to come.

2007-04-20T22:40:00.000+08:00

the first of things to come.

Dear YAP SHE FONG

Congratulations! We are delighted to offer you admission into SMU's Bachelor of Science (Information Systems Management)) programme at our School of Information Systems (SIS) for the Academic Year 2007-2008.

Competition for places at SMU gets more intensive each year, and only one in eight applicants gets selected. You should be proud of your achievement.

...

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exactly as it came.....capslock, bold, typo errors and all.

a side achievement no less, but the one letter to make or break me has yet to arrive.

a bit of this plus a bit of that plus a little extras on the sides.

2007-04-18T20:30:00.000+08:00

a bit of this plus a bit of that plus a little extras on the sides.

My Soccer 'Resume'

Name: Yap She Fong

Positions Played: Striker, Mid-fielder

Previous Clubs: VJSG

Goals Scored: 2

sigh. i really really REALLY miss playing on the field. anyone willing to take me in? hahah. even if there's a "yes" somewhere, the feeling's just different from what i've been thru with VJSG 05/06. well, the juniors (& grand-juniors. lol.) have kicked off (pun unintended.) their new season today with their first match at Farrer Park, against SRJC. congrats to them for the good win achieved today! hope they may carry forward with the champions' luck from last year. =)

even the place of the match today brings back, well, 'fond' memories. hahaha. the Farrer Park field was one of the 2 fields used during our first season in 2005 (i'm quite sure the pioneer seniors can recall this terribly well. lol.). and as far as i can remember, it was a very sandy place (read: lumps of sand across the field!!) with sparse grass, which would get waterlogged during rainy weather. hahah. terrible place to play. i certainly hope the conditions there have gotten better, or at the very least, have not gotten worse. that very field was also where i had scored my 2nd goal, in the last game of the season. =)

in other news, i found out in the newspaper on sunday that my idol, Flora Chan (Hong Kong actress), is pregnant!! like omg. sure comes as a pleasant surprise, but just as i'm looking forward to her new scheduled-to-be-filmed drama series with TVB (which is a rare collaboration now that she's not with TVB), news of her pregnancy comes with further news that she won't be able to continue with the filming hence. ah wells. at least there's sth to be happy abt. =)

a little bit abt my work...since san is so uptight abt me. hahaha. anyway, i conclude that i can't survive long-term in a bank office. lol. i've screwed up so many things alr and sometimes it can be quite bugging when colleagues generally assume my knowledge. hmmm. but i guess the pple here are still quite patient with me lah. thank goodness i'm only a temp staff. lol. =P otherwise, i can still cope with the workload. a bit overwhelming at times yet i'll get it done eventually so yea, can lah. jus get damn tired at the end of the day. hahah.

i realise i'm currently studying (driving theory), teaching (chinese) & working (at BNS) all at the same time. O.o like some wonderwoman like that. hahaha. well, tmr's just another workday.

hear ye, hear ye!

2007-04-14T16:30:00.000+08:00

hear ye, hear ye!

well, if you have been faithfully following my blogs either at blogspot or at livejournal, firstly thank you for dropping by. secondly, you might have noticed that there's been a sudden influx of posts at blogspot, while my lj frens might have noticed a couple of shuffles in their 'friends' page. no, there's nothing wrong with your computers. it's jus that i've been really busy the last couple of weeks so haven't had the time to sit down and type all my thoughts out (esp when so much has been going on so there's so much to say). yup, i've finally gotten down to putting up (pun unintended. lol.) all my posts. so for pple who have been bugging me to update my blog (*ehem* to a particular seow hwei san), have fun reading! on a side note, lj folks might wanna jus click the link to my lj so that it's easier to read everything. haha. =)

anyway, i know i've been rather down for the last few days also, which i think is pretty obvious in my backposts. but like what i said, they are backposts, and i'm currently feeling better alr, so if you're concerned, don't worry and thanks. =)

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now on to my regular post. hee. went for musicfest yesterday with some of the 22nds. as with the school (council) tradition, musicfest was a blast and it was so much fun grooving to the show. there was a new category for MTVs this year, so it made the event more interesting and fun. but of cos, that meant that the event ended much later also. haha. =P well, at least it justifies the increased price of $12! hahaha. thank goodness i'm a council senior, if not ah, damn hard to get tickets one leh! many thanks to tiq for the hug and flowers! certainly brightened up my day. =)

upcoming council event: the 24th Students' Council Investiture!! so exciting! *whee*

faculty test + interview.

2007-04-11T23:02:00.000+08:00

faculty test + interview.

so much for saying that having the passion for something will get you somewhere. yeah i know that i'm crazy enough to apply for a course that has the MOST application prerequisites (read: A level results, online application, portfolio, video, essay & faculty test) but i thought that the fact that i had the passion to study for it would help me thru all of it. yes, very much so to a great extent, esp when it came to the portfolio. but sigh, i think whatever confidence i had before the faculty test has been pretty much eroded off by the test itself.

(a) i can't draw still life for nuts.

(b) i could barely finish the 3 questions in 1.5hrs,

(d) i had no idea what the heck i was doing/writing for my 2nd answer.

hahahahah. and the first question being the "drawing still life" question, it's demoralising to see that the other pple in the lecture theatre can produce an absolutely superb drawing of their own hand (that's the qns) in 30min!!! omg. and my own drawing in comparison...dunno where to hide my face man. hahaha. =p heck lah, anyhow whack to the best of my abilities then hope some miracle happens lah. hahaha.

aft the faculty test, it was off to rush for the SMU interview, a compulsory part of my application to the Information Systems Management course. (see how troublesome my uni applications are? and i don't even know how it got so screwed up. lol.) the stupid interview took 2 hrs, and i didn't even have the time to take my lunch before that so HUR HUR, my stomach was taking over the functions of my brain. haha. guess the interview was okayy, except the part where i totally screwed up my math in "estimation qns" part. haha. heck lah, not as if this course is my 1st choice anyway. haha.

now it's jus left to wait and see. hmm.

bright lights.

2007-04-06T23:43:00.000+08:00

bright lights.

Baby, baby, baby
When all your love is gone,
Who will save me
From all I'm up against out in this world?
Maybe, maybe, maybe
You'll find something that's enough to keep you,
But if the bright lights don't receive you,
You should turn yourself around and come on home

ok ok, i admit it. i'm not as adaptable as i think i am, and possibly not as okay as i seem to be. yes, i'm aware that i'm 'subconciously' stressed at the moment, but it's not cause i can't cope with the work at my new office. call me silly but i can't seem to adapt to the commercial-area-office life. damn, i can't even survive lunchtime, like to find a place to eat in the sea of pple. my office feels a little claustrophobic to me (maybe cos my old office boasts a much larger table and space) and i'm really really sensitive when pple in my dept start talking behind my back, as well as to other things that happen around in the office.

jus went out to watch Mr. Bean's Holiday with my dearies today. and as the credits scrolled, i was suddenly struck, like a little kid in awe, about how much i really want to see my name in the scrolling credits on the big screen. one day. some day.

ah wells. i jus think that there's too many changes and too many uncertainties in my life right now, such that i can't find a place/person to be constantly close-by to be my sense of security. i know there are many pple out there who'll always support me, but still, the distance is there and it'll still be different from the past when we were constantly together. so pardon me if i seem very quiet these days. i know it's not me but i need time to adjust and find myself in the CBD area. meanwhile, music in my mp3 player shall be my source of comfort.

freaking emo kid who thinks wayyy too much.

for a special someone.

2007-04-04T22:31:00.000+08:00

for a special someone.

HAPPY 19TH BIRTHDAY DEARIE!!!

love you lots, always. =)

a new chapter.

2007-04-02T20:30:00.000+08:00

a new chapter.

today's my last day of work at NLB LSC (National Library Board, Library Supply Centre) and tmr's gonna be a new chapter at my new job with the Bank of Nova Scotia. goodbye to the days of chasing the trains at tanah merah/expo, flooded "grandfather-roads", t-shirt & jeans, and lack of lunchfood variety! hahahaha. ok lah, it's not that the work environment here at LSC is that bad that i wanna switch jobs. in fact, i think my colleagues here are so sweet, i can't bear to leave them also. (awww.) but it's a rare chance that i get to work in the real "office-life", knowing that it's really not my thing aft i graduate from uni. so here goes, purely for job experience's sake.

hahaha. this LSC job stint i would say, is worthy of the title as "my first job". ok, let me rephrase that. i'm proud to say that my first job was at LSC! hahah. really. i mean, look, firstly for someone whose chinese is not exactly very good compared to her peers, i was actually in the CHINESE dept. so much for stepping out of my comfort zone. hee. secondly, my presence there has really made an impact. ego aside, there are times i felt that i'm like some "light" that fell upon them. yeah, imagine some chorus singing in the background, then this spotlight opens from the sky, followed by some fella in the brown coat that falls face-first on the ground. hahaha!!! (if you still don't get the joke, that's the opening scene of mr. bean!!) no lah, but then looking back that the amount of work/non-work-related stuff that i've done for them, plus the great relationship that i share with them, i'm quite satisfied with my time there. :) jus perhaps a little disappointed that all the part-time staff weren't around today cos it's stock-taking day so i don't get to see all of them on my last day. oh wells.

so yup, tmr. hmm. a little nervous. like hello to the days of office wear, jam-packed mrt trains, rush-hour lunches and younger colleagues!! hahahaa. wish me luck man. :p

oh yeah, for all you 22nds councillors who didn't turn up for MONOCHROME@ the Hougang Istana, catch up on what happened here: http://thewajco.blogspot.com. do come down for the council gatherings if you can ok?? really would like to catch up with everyone as a group. and for those of you who are still in the dark on what the Hougang Istana (haha.) is....shame on you!!! (jus kiddin!) it's alvin's house lah....so don't think it's some club ah. hahaha. =p

phew, made it!

2007-03-30T22:22:00.000+08:00

phew, made it!

i woke up at 0845 on Thurs, 29 Mar '07, and went to sleep at 0445 on Fri, 30 Mar '07.

that's 20 hours straight without sleep.

(oh, and if you were wondering, i woke up later this morning at 11am. =p)

wahh, that's like smash all my previous records alr, including the one where i slept for 16 hours straight. hahaha. yes, i'm a sleep extremist i know. been sleeping at 3am for quite a few days over the last few weekends...guess most pple alr know that i'm crazily rushing what i call the "portfolio+essay+video" package for my university applications to NTU's school of ADM, so nobody thinks i'm mad. except me (since i described myself as "crazily"). lol.

yea, so anyway, today was the FINAL day to submit everything since this year 1st apr stupidly falls on a Sunday (oh, what an april's fool.) and the office of admissions for the universities are open only on weekdays. therefore, had to cheong EVERYTHING by today. gosh, really everything...from the supporting documents to the payment of fees to the online applications to the dear ol' "portfolio+essay+video". in 20 hours. hahaha. okayy, i wasn't THAT a procrastinator alright....i did finish certain parts of the application wayyyy ahead of time. it's jus that with work, along with all the extra stuff i have to submit, plus scholarships stuff. oh gosh.

thankfully, i finished everything in time and really, by the shave of my skin. i went down to submit all my remaining documents between 4-5pm at both NTU and NUS, where the offices close at 5.15pm. erps.

so now..... YES!!! it's over!! :) :)

3 gruelling weeks of stress i tell you. and man, i really have to thank my parents (not that they're gonna read this) for all the support and effort in helping me with this. AND of cos, not forgetting all my dear friends out there who have been giving me so much encouragement to keep me going. thank you all so much. i swear i would have broken down somewhere in the middle if not for you pple. :) thanks to hweisan and yvette for keeping me in your prayers, and thank God for answering them. :)

alright, so all that i can do, i have done. now it's all in the hands of fate to see if i get into ADM. :)

to leap or not to leap.

2007-03-26T08:15:00.000+08:00

to leap or not to leap.

Your Horoscope Today (from Todayonline.com)

AQUARIUS (Jan 20 – Feb 18)

There will be alternatives to consider today. Any advancement or change regarding your income or your profession can be positive if you are willing to adapt to change. Listen to the ones you love. Denial will only set you back.

i guess this is it. fated perhaps. again.

buffy!! :) :)

2007-03-18T20:45:00.000+08:00

buffy!! :) :)

yay!! thank you thank you thank you lay queen for helping me get my survivor-cook island buff!! :) :) hahah. wanted the black one (aitutonga tribe!) cos it's really very cool-looking but it ran out of stock. could have gotten red, which was the colour of the Aitu Four that rocked the whole house (island) down, or the green one, tribe colour of the Puka tribe (figure out the significance yourself for this one). but anyway, me being me, i didn't check the significance of the tribe colours before ordering cos i was so excited and so i jus ordered the next nicest-looking one after the black one. and so....i got the blue one, which i realised (much later) is the colour of the sucky Raro tribe. hahaha!!!

nvm, at least now i can say that i'm a true BLUE survivor fan!! hahaha! :p and hey, it's looking good that matters right? ;) *wheee!*

childhood nostalgia

2007-03-16T22:40:00.000+08:00

childhood nostalgia

i love looking back at the stuff that pretty much made up my childhood days. stuff that i used to love, and still do very much. the good, fun, innocent times. haha. ok, innocent was a bit questionable but still, it's gotta be better than my life now. =P

sesame street! lamb chop's play-along! mr. bean! hahahah!! and many more of cos. :) :)

this is the song that never ends,

yes, it goes on and on, my friend,

some people started singing not knowing what it was,

and they'll continue singing it forever just because—

this is the song that never ends,

yes, it goes on and on, my friend,

some people started singing not knowing what it was,

and they'll continue singing it forever just because—

i can go on singing this forever...

(gotta hear the song to get it stuck in your head dude. =P)

TGIW! lol. :p

2007-03-14T21:40:00.000+08:00

TGIW! lol. :p

ever since i started work, my nj friend-colleagues and i have established this '5-day work week' which goes like this:

mon is monday-blues-day.

tues is post-mon-blues-day.

wed is mid-week-crisis-day.

thurs is post-mid-week-crisis-day.

and fri is TGIF-day!! :)

(for the un-informed out there, TGIF stands for 'thank-god-it's-fri!'.)

(for the feminists out there, TGIF can also mean 'thank-god-i'm-female!' lol.)

currently, cos of time constraints to finish my uni/scholarship applications, i've been 'forced' to take all thur(s) & fri(s) off work till the deadline of 1st apr. which means my 'work week' has evolved to this:

mon is monday-blues-day.

tues is mid-'week'-crisis-day.

wed is TGIW-day!! :)

(for the uber-slow out there, TGIW stands for 'thank-god-it's-wed!'.)

(and if you really must, then 'thank-god-i'm-woman!' hahah!!!)

call me lame but i still think it's damn hilarious. haha. :p

yeah, and by taking all-in-all 6 days off work (cos it's 3 weeks), it sums up to be abt $300 off my salary!! that being said, i still have to fork out money on travel and buying material for my portfolio! and dear tiq has very kindly (i'm not being sarcastic here.) reminded me of the econs term we learnt for this: "OPPORTUNITY COST". haha. omg. this portfolio is damn expensive can. it better get me into SADM (sch of art, design & media). hahaha. :p

yay!!

2007-03-12T12:35:00.000+08:00

*yay!!*

i seldom blog twice a day...

...but then it's something to be happy abt:

lay queen's back in s'pore!!!

YAY!

all hail her royal highness! hahaha. =P

my day is made. =)

1500m.

2007-03-12T09:57:00.000+08:00

1500m.

ever wanted something but had to wait SOOO long for it that the 'sian' feeling sets in? cos that's the confusing feeling that i'm having right now. it's like running a 1500m race you know. the 1st 500m in year 1, tripping, falling but carrying hopes that things will get better since it's only the beginning. the 2nd 500m in year 2, still tripping, falling and even cramping up, but it's only half the race and the optimistic thought is still lingering around. after getting back my A level results, it gave me strength to sprint forward another 300m. but now, i'm running in the 1300-1400m region, wondering if what's waiting for me at the finishing line is as rosy as i had expected it to be, wondering if i should slow down and jus stop at the 1400m mark. yes, jus 100m short of the finishing line.

i think only a rare few, perhaps only 1 person so far, would know what i'm talking abt. ok, i'm damn stressed abt my uni applications, scholarship applications aside. i'm scared - lacking the confidence to finish my portfolio in a veryvery tight deadline with a standard high enough for my own expections. even so, there is this inferiority that the other applicants' portfolios will be better than mine. i've been so keen on the animation course, willing to take up the tedious, time-consuming course and yet i'm naively hoping that i can get in with a 'last-min' portfolio. but it's too late to turn back now. i'll jus have to make a blind dash, sacrifices and all, to the finishing line in hopes that there's a pot of gold at the end of the rainbow.

i had typed this post earlier - much longer, and detailed, but it was lost. and so are most of the emotions that were reflected in the previous post. sigh. maybe it's meant to be.

as for you. some thanks for the reminder abt my love life. very timely indeed - i so didn't need that. and if you ever chance upon this blog, this post, i'll have you know that i still meant every word i said in the smses. appreciate the concern but it's only adding on to my troubles at this time.

tick. tick.

2007-03-07T07:58:00.000+08:00

tick. tick.

seriously, i dunno what's worse. the anticipation and fear while waiting for results, or the frustration and stress of the aftermath of it. raise your hands, all those who are having difficulties deciding which course to take, where to apply to, meeting the deadlines of the scholarship/course applications etc. haha. well, not that i can see your hands anyway. :p

ok lah, i think i'm better off than most others in that i've decided what i wanted to take. esp since my grades are not as good as *some pple* who have the option of applying for jus abt everything. lol. jus kiddin. so now it's only a matter of applying to ADM and pray hard i get in. however, i'm having trouble with deadlines & picking my 'backup' courses. like omg. i have less than 2 weeks left to apply for some scholarships and less than a month to finish my portfolio!!!(erps.) i sure hope i make it in time, esp the portfolio. if not i'll never forgive myself if i do not get in cos of that. >_<

hmm. i realise that my profile page on blogspot is waaayy backdated. (no point going to look at it now...i've updated it. :p) hahah. well, at least i've accomplished 1 item in my 'wishlist', which is to pass 4 'A' level subjects. ah, the joys of setting a 'low' expectation. :p it's 'low' cos to the high-flyers, passing is nth. but hey, i've been failing my whole jc life k. haha. :) now on to the next item of getting into ADM!!!

and yay!!! liverpool has whacked barcelona out of the champions' league!! wahhaha!! :p on to get that trophy back boys! :)

results are like contagious diseases.

2007-03-05T22:00:00.000+08:00

results are like contagious diseases.

ok, first, a disclaimer: i'm not boasting. not as if i got 4As or 3As also. haha. :p

anyway, from the time i get my results, in the span of less than:

3 hrs: my parents, schmates, close frens from other schs, ex-teachers, and godma+family would know my results. (duh. because i msg them.)

24 hrs: the neighbours upstairs, downstairs, left, right, in my block whom my parents always talk to already know my results. mummy's 'auntie' frens have called to ask her abt my results. daddy's frens & some distant relatives have alr called as well.

48 hrs: some random, damn far-off pple whom i know but seldom see, actually know my results or even better still, ask for them! (and it's not even from me or my parents!) apparently my godma's sister's boss' wife asked her (my god-aunt) for my results! like omg. O.o

72 hrs: back to the office. duh my whole dept knows cos they asked me. and then the frens of those in my dept who are in other depts come along and ask me as well. -.-"

somebody pls tell me this spreads faster than the SARS outbreak. haha. :p

nil sine labore.

2007-03-03T20:23:00.000+08:00

nil sine labore.

finally. the 'big day'. Victorians' day!! haha. okay lah, it wasn't very big...in terms of the no. of pple who turned up (which was expected.) but nonetheless it was an event that required jus as much planning & execution as with any other 1-day sch events. :)

saw grace, charlene, waikin and hwei san at the event...thanks for coming down to support the event! and thanks too to all those who turned up whom i might have missed! :) haha. despite being part of the organising comm, i still got to have a bit of fun lah. with the opening exhibition game of floorball (LOL.), free prata, a cool OVA shirt (nice!), and mass dance (!!), it jus felt great to be back in sch again, being in 'authority' (haha.) and not having to worry abt anything else. :)

anyway, working with the organising comm was a blast. :) hilarious bunch of pple to work with. haha. most of them were from the 2oth SC, so it was like back in council again. but of cos, every council is different and the dynamics of this team is naturally different from that of the 22nds. still, it's a learning experience. :) any 22nds out there willing to join the comm next year? :p

and how could i have forgotten....HAPPY 19TH BIRTHDAY SUNNY!! :) :)

in the hours leading up...

2007-03-02T23:20:00.000+08:00

in the hours leading up...
on the bus on the way back to vj to collect results, there was a familiar feeling creeping back up to me again. no, it wasn't that moment of sudden fear that seized me and made me cry hysterically even before i got my results during the O level release.

rather, it was that feeling...that feeling that i always get before every match of my 2nd season of soccer. the feeling that i was in a very sucky situation, going for battle, & predicting that my position will probably remain stuck in the muck. and yet, i have this quiet confidence that despite it all, the team can and will make it through successfully, even if it is to leave me behind. however, for the A levels, i was alone in this, but that only made things a tad more scary. realised that i've gotten quite used to this feeling actually. :p

anyway, this time around i had the fortune of meeting my civics tutor before the official release and i couldn't resist asking him for my results immediately. couldn't bear waiting...lest i breakdown before even getting my results again. (esp when i scared myself aft looking at the honours & stats board. lol.)

thankfully, mine went well. better than my own expectations. :) yes, thank God. now with renewed hopes for scholarships and that darn place in ADM that's playing-hard-to-get (lol.), it's time to whack whack whack like nobody's business. :p

aft that, it was off to prep for vic-day. which ended at ard 10.30pm for me. gosh. hopefully the event goes well for tmr. so exciting....feels like being back in council again. :)

anyway, to the pple who have made it to the honours board, a big CONGRATULATIONS to you all!! to the pple who weren't very happy with their results, take pride that you've done your best and really, all hope is not lost. :) pple!! we've survived the A levels!! be proud of yourselves cos i'm proud of us all too! hahah. :p

tmr! tmr! i love you tmr (?!)

2007-03-01T21:21:00.000+08:00

tmr! tmr! i love you tmr (?!)

i'm the sad bugger case who's only hoping to PASS my 4 A levels subjects when everyone else is hoping to get 4As & whatever distinctions they have. sigh. jus check this out:

at a family friend's house during CNY, who's a very experienced tuition teacher:

she: eh, you getting back your A level results soon right? got hope to get good results or not? me: errr....gotta pray hard and hope that i pass lor...cos my prelims weren't very gd.

she: aiyah, sure can one lah. my students prelims get Bs, Cs, Ds in the end also get As.

me: errr...i got DDOF for my prelims leh.

she: (looks stunned) ok, yah....i think you really need the luck and pray hard also.

me: (smiling) haha...thanks. (back of mind) hur hur....some thanks ah. -.-"

on the way home from work on the mrt with other same-age colleagues today:

me: eh, today is theoretically our last day as 'O' level graduates leh!

fren1: eh yah hor!! yay!!

fren2: you better not speak too soon....later end up still remaining as 'O' level graduate ah!! jus kiddin!!

but seriously, it did hit me (earlier on) that there is a possibility of me remaining as an 'O' level grad. not that i'm being pessimistic or what, but it is the first time for a major exam that i'm not worried as to whether i get excellent results. it sucks that i am actually anticipating in hopes that i'll pass. like omg. it's a sick sinking feeling i tell you. and tmr is gonna be a heck of a roller-coaster ride considering my emotion-spectrum can range from one extreme to the other...depending on how my results are. sigh. =(

anyway, best of luck to all my dearies, and to everyone else who's getting back their results tmr! =)

this is not 'stop, drop & roll'.

2007-02-26T14:24:00.000+08:00

this is not 'stop, drop & roll'.

ok, it's confirmed. the a level results will be out on friday, 2nd mar '07, 2.30pm, specifically for me, at vjc. as emergency procedures would have it, this calls for an anti-emergency protocol know as:

PANIC. -freaks out- *DIES*

ok, ignore the 1st paragraph. i have no idea what i'm talking abt. only the 4 words above this should count. :p

life's game of survival

2007-02-24T17:00:00.000+08:00

life's game of survival

sia lah. i've been so busy this week. not to mention being tired from it all at the end of the week. worse still, i missed my 'Survivor: Fiji' last night cos i was so tired i forgot abt it aft working on the OVA committee stuff and plonked off to bed!!! =( aargh.

next week's gonna be yet another C.R.A.Z.Y week with victorians' day & results coming up. ERPS. >_<>

my consolation is that i get to go bowling with my darlings tmr! fun fun. :)

happy 1st birthday to my bloggy!! :)

animated me.

2007-02-21T21:53:00.000+08:00

animated me.

say hello to probably the one-&-only life-sized animated character you'll ever know. yes, me. the crazy fella who goes round living life like mr bean:

walking into pillars.

missing a step off the stairs.

banging my head against the glass panes of shops.

getting into car accidents.

tripping over random stuff.

yadda yadda. :p

and in my latest antics, i jus whacked the corner of the plastic file into my left eye last nite. what an idiot. -.-" lol. :p but anyway, like all goofy characters, nothing serious really happens. :)

oh wait...is that my eyeball on the floor?? erm, excuse me while i go...erm....pick it up & fix it back. :p

(haha! :p)

chinese new year-urgh !

2007-02-20T19:17:00.000+08:00

chinese new year-urgh !

i seriously cannot stand cny. it being tiring is one thing, but it's irritating when pple do the things they do during cny jus cos it's a traditional obligation and not cos they truly mean it, you know?

one more thing, i'm so gonna whack the next person who bugs me to eat when i've told him/her for the UMPTEENTH time that i'm absolutely full & bursting. some pple jus don't get it. i know it's part of being a good host to offer food to the guest & that a good guest should eat some. (which i did ok!) but i think i'll be doing the host a better favor by refusing subsequent offers...i'd rather be rude than to end up puking on the floor.

cny, btw, is a life cycle that goes like this:

- when you're single, pple either ask if you have a bf or when you're gonna have a bf. (like how would i know when he'll appear??!!)

- when you're attached, pple will ask when the both of you are gonna tie the knot.

- when you're married, pple will ask when you both are planning to have kids.

- and when you finally have kids, pple will either: run off with your kids to play with them, or bombard you with questions abt your kids. (eg. when are they getting a bf/gf) -.-"

this coming from personal experience and observation over the years. lol. :p

big BIG day!!

2007-02-18T01:00:00.000+08:00

big BIG day!!

HAPPY 19th BIRTHDAY TO TIQ!! :) :)

and a happy lunar new year to all too!

Cheers!

happy valentines' day!! <3

2007-02-14T13:41:00.000+08:00

happy valentines' day!! <3

blogging from the office. HAHA! :p

yea man, it's DE day for looove. haha. :p but since i'm still single, unattached & looking (*hint hint!* lol. :p), 14th feb shall remain as friendship day. no, make that my girlfriends day. hahah. i'm straight k...jus like guys have their homies, girls can have their girlfriends! :p

so here's a big shoutout to:

my dearies from scgs - sheryl, jiat sing, huifen, tsun ting & junxing!! :)

my dearies from vj - hwei san, atiqah & lay queen!! :) and the 22nds students' council!! :)

love you all, and may all of you find the love of your life! X)

secret not mine. :p

2007-02-13T21:50:00.000+08:00

*secret* not mine. :p

Just a little more love
just a little more peace
that's all it takes to live a dream
walk hand in hand
to understand
and one day soon
we'll live in harmony.

haha...this is like the 2nd consecutive post abt tv shows. :p anw, i finally got to catch the entire show - "the victoria secrets fashion show 2006" yesterday!! haha. now now, i didn't watch the show for the products ok! (as if i have the figure & money to wear them! lol.)

but after watching the show, i really think that it should be the dream of all models to be on that runway. yes, it's like THE runway lah. the lightings, the stage design, the set changes, the music, & the product design. (haha.) omg. it's glam, classy, funky, & groovy all in one! damn, they don't even call their models models. they're called 'angels', complete with the elaborate wings. how cool is that man. and i gotta be fair k, those models are really damn pro & damn hawt.

haha...i think it's cool that the programme even shows like the backstage stuff, the models' sharing segment, and life from a model's point of view. lol. like compare with those runway shows you see on tvmobile. milan, paris, chomel, dior, whatever big names you can come up with...it's nothing as entertaining as this. haha. to use songs like sexyback for a runway show really changes the whole mood & atmosphere of the show. the song above was used in the 'heaven-themed' segment. nice lyrics, fits the theme, & well performed. :)

haha. alright. enough gushing abt the technical aesthetics of the show. one day i'm gonna do a stage design jus as glam ok. :p

best in s'pore & JB and some say...

2007-02-11T22:30:00.000+08:00

best in s'pore & JB and some say...

batam! haha. :p

jus watched the grand finale of pck pte ltd. quite emo...& yes, there was a tear in my eye. :'( man, i'm so gonna miss watching the show.

the only 2 sitcoms on channel 5 that i ever liked, which left a deep impression on me, were 'under one roof' & 'PCK pte ltd'. the former stopped running a few years back and now the latter. sigh. channel 5 recently had a showcase of the old sitcoms in celebration of 10 years of award-winning sitcoms...and it was so nice to watch that re-run episode of 'under one roof' and still laugh so heartily. man the show was like more than 10 years ago lah! :p

pity i didn't catch PCK the musical. wanted to but lacked the resources to go watch it. haha. :p oh wells, if they ever choose to stage it again, i'm definitely watching it! darn, doubt i can get to watch phantom of the opera also. >_<

to the guy with the funky hair, iconic mole, bright yellow boots & his signature line. peace out. :)

why there's such a thing called GENTLEmen. =P

2007-02-09T21:51:00.000+08:00

why there's such a thing called GENTLEmen. =P

it's the sweet, thoughtful little things that guys do for girls that make the girl's heart melt. even if they don't mean to impress the girl or do it unintentionally. don't you think so? X) of cos, it's always sweeter when you know they do it for you cos you're in their heart. awww. haha. :p

ok, i don't think i've exactly answered my title. :p heck. heart melted alr. X)

office 101.

2007-02-08T22:44:00.000+08:00

office 101.

have been working with the most infamous woman in my company since yesterday. ugh. one of the worst working experiences i've ever had. no, make that the worst person i've ever worked with. haha. terribly long story to complain abt. :p wanna hear then ask me lah huh. haha.

finished my work today with my hands feeling like they've jus been working with OBS fibreglass kayaks. haha. cos i think got like tons of micro papercuts on my hands so they feel itchy and prickly. ugh. tmr my superiors will be returning from a week-long course, so hopefully i can do other (better) jobs. yay! haha. funny that i should be happy abt my superiors returning. but they're nice pple so yah, not surprising either. :)

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tried sth at my office....and currently i hold the record of guessing 3 pple's birthday months correctly on the 1st attempt. and i've correctly identified on the 1st attempt for another 3 pple, if they were born at the start, middle, or end of the year. start being jan-mar, mid being may-jul, end being oct-dec. the rest of the months i call them in-betweens. haha. not bad, looks like i do have a knack of looking at pple's faces & characters to guess when they're born. :)

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with the O level results due to be released tmr, there've been pple at the office who either think i'm getting my results tmr (-.-") or keep asking me when the A levels results will be released. then of cos, everyone will follow up with the "which uni & course are you intending to pursue?" question. ugh. -.-"

sigh. i've told SO many pple SO many times that i want to go do animation at NTU. so much so that the more i say, the more i'm scared that i cannot enter the sch. i've been so bent & keen on going to school of adm (art, design & media) that even my so-called 'backup courses' seem jus a temporary alt for me. english? NIE? that's jus abt it for backups. ho hum. pray hard then. :p haha.

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i wanna go watch the phantom of the opera!!! >_<

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haha. ok, time to stop blogging, continue with my lesson prep, before plonking off to sleep. lol. (yay! survivor fiji starts tmr - friday!!) :)

Things that make you feel good. :)

2007-02-07T19:05:00.000+08:00

Things that make you feel good. :)

(got this off the New Paper... :) )

laughing so hard your face hurts. (HAHA!!)
a hot shower.
no lines at the supermarket.
finding a $50 note in your jacket pocket months later.
hearing your favourite song on the radio.
lying in bed listening to the rain outside.
a special glance. (ooo... :p)
a good conversation.
midnight phone calls that last for hours.
accidentally overhearing someone say something nice abt you.
waking up and realising you still have a few hrs left to sleep. (YES!!)
road trips with frens.
holding hands with someone you care abt. (aww...)
running into an old fren and realising that some things (good or bad) never change.
watching the expression on someone's face as they open a much desired present from you.
knowing that somebody misses you.
knowing you've done the right thing, no matter what other pple think.

i think this list is 100% true. and i'm glad i've experienced more than half of it. :) :) now that's feeling good!! hahaha! :p

i'm the boss!! (nah, tiq is. :p)

2007-02-06T22:10:00.000+08:00

i'm the boss!! (nah, tiq is. :p)

haha. goodness knows what's gotten into me. received waikin's sms abt coucnil gathering at settlers' cafe. then i think i read it, put it aside to think whether to go or not, and then i totally forgot abt it!! haha. until like this morning tiq sms to ask if i'm going then i was like - that sounded kinda familiar... but i couldn't find waikin's msg in my hp anymore!! and i don't recall deleting it cos i thot i put it aside. -.-" hahah. dory fish memory. :p

so anyway, went down to meet the councillors - jas, eq, alvin & waikin at dhoby ghaut to have dinner at yoshinoya. then dawn & david came to join us...jus in time to take away so that we could head over to the mind cafe to play games. :) tiq joined us there. it was ladies' nite on tuesdays so the girls get to play for free! yay. played 'i'm the boss', a game that tests your negotiation and metal calculation skills (LOL.), which tiq won. then played 'seize the bone', a game somewhat like heart attack except that this game can cheat one. haha. the 2nd game was damn disasterious to me lah. cos i was thinking so much that my reaction slowed. ugh. actually the game no need to think one. -.-" haha.

anw, the games wasn't the highlight lah. it's jus nice to meet up with the councillors again, even if it's jus that few. btw, jus realised that it was a fully welco-cum-exco-pple-only reunion. hahah. but then me and tiq left earlier to have a good rest for the next working day so we left the rest to play on. damn, i wanted to try the 'snorta' game and be the frog!! lol. next time then. :p

music & movement is my life. :)

2007-02-05T11:55:00.000+08:00

music & movement is my life. :)

You can't stop an avalanche as it races down the hill
You can try to stop the seasons, girl,
but you know you never will
And you can try to stop my dancing feet,
but I just cannot stand still!
'Cause the world keeps spinnin' round and round
And my heart's keepin' time to the speed of the sound
I was lost 'til I heard the drums,
then I found my way
'Cause you can't stop the beat!

Ever since this whole world began,
A woman found out if she shook it,
she could shake up a man
And so I'm gonna shake and shimmy it
the best that i can today
'Cause you can't stop the motion of the ocean
rthe sun in the sky
You can wonder, if you wanna,
but I'll never ask why
And if you try and hold me down
I'm gonna spit in your eye and say
THAT YOU CAN'T STOP THE BEAT! :) :)

i plug on my mp3 player:
groove on the mrt platform,
dance alone in the lift,
walk on the streets with a skip in my steps,
sing in the bathroom.

i walk on the streets:
strut on long narrow paths-my runway,
leap past pple on the escalators-my racetrack,
hopscotch on coloured tiles on the floor-my childhood,
weave through crowds in shopping centres-my videogame.

i look at the world:
see a photograph in stationary pple & objects,
direct a movie with the events around me,
dream a animation of a fantasy merged with reality,
imagine that life's a play, the actor on stage.

the world is my dance floor, my runway, my stage, my movie set, my CG animation. :)

yay!! go LIONS!!

2007-02-04T22:47:00.000+08:00

yay!! go LIONS!!

CONGRATULATIONS to the S'pore national football team, the LIONS!! for winning the ASEAN football championship for the 3rd time!! :) :) really proud of them man!! at least there's sth going for s'pore football. hee hee.

kudos to the thais for playing a good game, especially with keeping possession. aft all, it is a game between the 2 best teams in SEA. cos like there's only 2 teams who have ever won the cup in the tournament's history. thailand & s'pore. so duh. hahah. :p

anyway, it was a 2-1 home win for the Lions in the 1st leg and a 1-1 away draw in the 2nd leg. :) so yup, YAY!! again. hee. :) i support national football k! haha. :p

darling + darling + more darlings :p

2007-02-03T23:12:00.000+08:00

darling + darling + more darlings :p

haha...today was a nice day out. like can tell from my post title lah huh. :p it's been SSOO long since i last went out shopping with sheryl, cos the last few times we met up were jus for celebrations and driving lessons (including this morning's e-trial test. lol.). haha. anyway, as with all other outing trips we've had, there'll be tons of laughter, lame-ness and freakin' coincidences in the things we do together. lol. :) that's why she's my best shopping buddy. no competition man. :p

aft that, it was meeting up with hwei san who jus returned from m'sia. :) and off to support the charity event that tiq was volunteering at. dinner at breeks with both girls, enqing, yiyun & muzzy. :) ah yes yes, so fun to 'bully' hwei san again aft 2 months. MUAHAHA. (i know you're reading this!) but don't worry, i still love you. (eck. sounds gross. i'm straight hor.) :p lol.

lalala. so that's one saturday gone. but i got extended weekend cos the staff in my dept going for course on mon so i no need to go to work also. -.-" hai. so got rest but no pay lor. haha. well, case of the glass being half-full or half-empty. :p

meet the kallang ROAR!!

2007-01-31T23:57:00.000+08:00

meet the kallang ROAR!!

hahaha. i actually gave in to my temptation to go watch the ASEAN football championship final first-leg match between s'pore & thailand today. partly cos like goodness-knows-when it's returning to s'pore, like whether s'pore can make it to the finals again, and like it's the last football match to be played at the national stadium. i think that alone is worth the $7. :) me, elton, sia see & cherie took cab down to tampines stadium during lunchtime yesterday jus to buy tickets k! :p

so anyway, was decked in my liverpool jersey. duh, red lah, somemore is champions' jersey leh! hahaha. a bit off the point but still must mention. lol. so shameless. watching the match, i would say that the lions have improved their game quite a bit. but of cos, top teams never stop identifiying their mistakes and improving on them. s'pore is lucky to have gotten away with some of their mistakes. got off to a good start at 18 min with a 1-0 lead, only to be equalised at ard the 50th min. ugh.

then at the 83rd min, the ref decided to award this penalty to s'pore and the thais were so angry with the decision that they walked off the field. like omg. O.o (actually i didn't know what was going on when watching at the stadium cos can't hear commentary. only found out later from tiq who was watching from home. ) frankly, the ref was also a bit sotong lah, like dunno what he's doing also. there was a penalty that shld have been awarded to s'pore 30 min earlier wasn't awarded. then this controversial one he go and award it. -.-"

and so the fans at the stadium jus stood there and jeered at the ref and thais for abt 15 min before the game resumed. haha. that stupid clapping rhythm followed by a particular malay swear word. damn funny to watch the fans doing it. also during the 15 min, there was some scruffle between the s'pore and thai fans....saw someone being taken away by the police cos was sitting near the thai fans area. aye, 1 game like that also so dramatic. -.-"

anw, back to the game. it resumed and we whacked in the penalty.... 2-1 to s'pore. like YAY!! :) hee hee. hopefully our lead will hold out thru the 2nd leg of the match in thailand. was quite fun doing the kallang ROAR!! with all the other fans, of which i know some of the soccer pple & coaches, and jiahao were there to watch. sure got other pple i know who were there but not aware & didn't have the luck to meet them. so hard to see pple lah. like some red sea like that. lol. :p

my fren said the best seats are at the grandstand (for close-up view) and the top of the stadium (for aerial view). bah, i say the best spot to be in is right smack in the centre of that white circle on the field when the ref blows the whistle for the game to start. HAHA. man, i miss that adrenaline rush of playing as striker. watching as an ex-player-cum-fan is a totally different experience from that of the players' or the ordinary fans'. :p

...zzZ

2007-01-30T22:45:00.000+08:00

...zzZ

gosh am i exhausted. and packed.

my eyes - work,

mentally - lessons

(the ones where i teach at & the ones where i'm supposed to learn),

physically - renovations at home,

emotionally - and the silly squabbles at home

barely have time to blog, so my poor lj has been put on hold. haha. well, at least i can find time to go out with friends and dearies. and besides being occasionally emotionally stressed at times, i'm pretty much satified/content/happy with what i'm doing. so fine for now. i jus need the bed for longer periods of time. :p

the song of the heart.

2007-01-25T22:16:00.000+08:00

the song of the heart.

we have to find our heart songs all by ourselves

it's the voice you hear inside

and who you truly are.

i jus spotted a causasian on the same mrt train as me on the way to work today (the one from tanah merah to expo).

ok, correction. i didn't spot the caucasian. I SPOTTED THE STAFF TAG THAT WAS CLIPPED TO HIS JEANS.

and it read: "lucasfilm animations singapore."

damn. that is LUCASFILM ANIMATIONS SINGAPORE, for yelling out loud!!

i was so tempted to follow behind him and like find out where his office is. lol. :p (so much for 'following my dreams.') haha!

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stupid admin has decided to pass down a rule that all temp staff are not to listen to headphones/earphones during work and are not to surf non-work related internet as well. or else they'll be terminated. like wth. -.-" and mind you, the permanent staff are 'allowed' to do that.

i nearly DIED trying to keep myself awake at work without my mp3 player today. oh, the irony. -.-"

.ffuts modnar

2007-01-24T22:14:00.000+08:00

.ffuts modnar

ok, title reads "random stuff.", if you haven't alr figured it out. lol. so with that being said, here goes:

- one of my guppies gave me a late birthday present today....17 baby guppies!! (19 would have been a nice number but i'm happy all the same!) :) :)

- recieved a very nice & sweet froggie letter + present in the mail from san today. thanks dearie! love ya lots! :)

- my house is under going some MASSIVE self-renovation by my dad now. so things are looking terribley messy. *dies* lol. :p

- i realise i'm starting to get scared of getting back my A level results. erps. >.<

- i dreamt that i met i-know-who along the street, and he was wearing his army gear!! so adorable. X)

ah....i think that's it. a bit tired to think/recall anything alr. lol. :p

ZERO!!

2007-01-23T23:59:00.000+08:00

ZERO!!

HAPPY 19th BIRTHDAY TO ME!! :) :)

haha. so freakin shameless on my own blog. :p

A BIG THANK YOU TO:

enqing (1st msg in the morning!), atiqah, my junior 'twin' karen, laipeng, hwei san (overseas sms!), stephanie, azrul, jasmine, and christine for all the lovely sms greetings. :) :)

jerlyn, elton, sia see, cherie, and michelle, for the very loud & not-so-surprise 'birthday serenade' at my office (plus the yummy cornetto ice-cream!) :) :)

my scgs dearies: sheryl, hui fen, jiat sing, tsun ting and jun xing for the mini-party & presents on saturday. :) :)

lay queen! ...for the tag on my bloggy that hails all the way from Needham Heights, USA!! (i love my neocounter. lol.) :) :)

[added] my dear bro yvette! for the belated, but no less blessed sms greeting. :) :) && chingkai for the unexpected belated sms all the way from tekong! omg. haha. :) :)

i feel so loved and blessed today. <3

(haha. this post is actually posted 1 day later. but nvm. shall jus tweak the posting time all the same. :p)

...1.

2007-01-22T22:21:00.000+08:00

...1.

19 years old very soon.
10 candles on my cake.
haha.
hopefully that's enough to grant me 3 birthday wishes.
lol. :p
so greedy.
nvm.
I HOPE LAH HUH.

anw, i'm not telling my birthday wishes.
later they don't come true ah.

-shhh.- *it's secret* haha. :p

hee hee. 24 hours left. :)

que sara sara.

2007-01-20T22:20:00.000+08:00

que sara sara.

when i was just a little girl,
i asked my mother what would i be.
would i be pretty,
would i be rich,
here's what she said to me:

que sara sara,
whatever will be, will be.
the future's not ours to see,
que sara sara,
what will be, will be.

no, i'm not the kind to be so obsessive abt being pretty or rich. but the thoughts abt 'my significant half' has been stuck in my head for a few days now. a little moody abt it i guess, but i know there's no point being impatient, upset or angry. an empty feeling perhaps? but i hate to use the word 'empty' cos my ego gets in the way. hahah. :p

my birthday cards often read:
"hope you get a bf soon!" -friend
"get yourself a bullfrog & have lots of tadpoles in years' to come" -friend
"rmb to show us your 'cation' and your little bouncy 'crystals'!" -ex-chem teacher

(lol. i jus realised 'bf' can be used as initials to stand for 'bullfrog' also. :p what a coincidence.)

oh well, lalala, i shall jus continue having daydreams/nightdreams abt my girly fantasies. wah haha. so sorry for boring everybody with such whiney '>_<' posts. i know i've been complaining abt this in like goodness-knows how many posts, for like goodness-knows how long alr. hahah. :p

...4...3...2...

2007-01-19T20:50:00.000+08:00

...4...3...2...

23rd Jan

Off a keychain:

People born on this date are known to be very vocal and forthright with their feelings. They believe that 'honesty is the best policy'. A solid and dependable friend.

(very very very true. and no, i'm not inflating my ego. jus being perfectly honest. lol. :p)

Off blogthings.com:

You're not good at any one thing, and that's the problem. You're good at so much - you never know what to do. Change is in your blood, and you don't stick to much for long. You are destined for a life of travel and fun.

Your strength: Your likeability
Your weakness: You never feel satisfied
Your power color: Bright yellow
Your power symbol: Asterisk
Your power month: May

(hmms. quite true also. except the part abt me never feeling satisfied. that's not me. :p)

Off an online birthday calendar (paulsadowski.org/BirthDay): (it was horrendously long so this is only part of it.)

As of 1/22/2007 8:16:25 AM EST

You are 18 years old.

You are 228 months old.

You are 992 weeks old.

You are 6,939 days old.

You are 166,544 hours old.

You are 9,992,656 minutes old.

You are 599,559,385 seconds old.

Your age is the equivalent of a dog that is 2.71585127201566 years old.

(Life's just a big chewy bone for you!)
There are 1 days till your next birthday on which your cake will have 19 candles.

Those 19 candles produce 19 BTUs, or 4,788 calories of heat (that's only 4.7880 food calories!).

You can boil 2.17 US ounces of water with that many candles.

(ok, last one a bit no link to the top two. i jus think all that counting is damn hilarious. lol. :p)

lalala. 3 more days. hee hee. :)

...7...6...5...

2007-01-16T22:55:00.000+08:00

...7...6...5...

18 of my guidelines & beliefs for life at the age of 18: (a non-exhaustive list)

on principles:

1. honesty is the best policy - be true (sincere) to yourself & everyone else.

2. be optimistic. :) :)

3. work hard, play hard, love hard, live harder.

4. never ever harm any animal. (humans included)

5. take things as they come. :)

6. live life without regrets. aka pursue dreams. even if they seem impossibly wild.

on relationships:

7. smiles, hugs & kisses - the nicest, sweetest, free gifts for anyone you love. :)

8. time with my dearies is never wasted. always make time for them.

9. lasting friendship takes lots of love, trust & maintenence. <3

10. be initiative.

11. always always tell pple how much you love them. it won't hurt. :)

12. pleases, thank yous, & sorrys can do wonders.

on living:

13. believe in miracles. they do happen. :)

14. believing in fate makes life so much more of an adventure.

15. experience is the best teacher.

16. there can never be a lack of appreciation & 'thankfulness'.

17. learning happens anytime, anywhere. it's only a matter of picking it up & thinking.

18. if it's not a matter of life or death, or any worse, then heck lah. lol. :p

one more week.

blogspot + livejournal

2007-01-16T21:45:00.001+08:00

blogspot + livejournal

ok pple! this is an official announcement!! (haha.)

because:

1. pple currently having lj are lazy to open my blogspot website.

(i wonder where that came from. :p)

2. i have trouble commenting on lj blogs as anonymous. -.-"

3. two (& now three!) of my dearies are having lj accounts!! O.o

so...i'm starting my lj bloggy too!! hahaha. (even tho i never quite liked it.) yup, but of cos, my blogspot is still my fav home to blog so this place will not die down. in fact, in order to make life easier for everyone (except myself), i shall be posting all my posts FIRST on blogspot, before copying it over to lj. so for pple who want the latest updates, pls stick around here. for pple with lj accounts wanting to access my lj blog, you might have to wait a bit cos technical & time difficulties will delay my postings on lj.

therefore, in other words, it's the same posts on 2 diff blogs. great. i hope i can cope with it. hahaha. :p i'm starting the double-posts with this post. so if you wanna check it out:

my blogspot is at: www.froginthesmallcity.blogspot.com

my livejournal is at: www.froginsmallcity.livejournal.com

NOTE: the two addresses are different!! (cos lj doesn't allow long usernames. -.-")

lj friends....pls add me as a friend!! hahah. thanks! :)

10...9...8...

2007-01-13T00:55:00.000+08:00

10...9...8...

10 more days to my birthday.
yay. :)

wow. there goes my year of age 18.
more like where did it go man??!!
haha. :p

so much for pple saying that they wanna stay 18 forever...
mine whizzed past so fast,
it didn't seem all that impressionable.

let's see...
the championship,
the 22nds council,
the A levels.

i think i prefer being 16 or 17 'forever'. hahaha. :p

aloha! haha. :p

2007-01-12T21:45:00.000+08:00

aloha! haha. :p

update on the 100+ page book list that i'm ploughing through....i'm done with page 33!! hahahah. must jia you! hee hee. :p

anyway, today was pretty slack at work, cos i only had this stupid book list to plough through so no one was bugging me at all. hahaha. jus me && dear pc. PLUS, we all got to knock off at 3.30pm today cos there was gonna be the office new year's party!! hahaha. yah, a bit late i know but nvm lah, can play can alr. lol. :p

and so the theme was aloha! (O.o) and we were all stuck partying on the 2nd floor office - where my workstation is (we occupy the 3rd & 4th floor also) while it was raining cats, dogs, and monkeys outside. hahah. no surprise that i was one of the youngest there, esp since most of the jc pple have ponned the party. and the 'older' staff aren't exactly enthu in these things, esp the games part. but surprise surprise, my head of dept (one of the older ones in my dept) was super high & young-at-heart!! hahaha. O.o

so i played along with her and even answered one of the quiz qns with full marks! (what's the color of the tables & chairs in the pantry? ans: tables - beige, black, green, red. chairs - black, white) hahaha. goes to show how much time i actually spend in the pantry. :p no lah, i jus like to notice these things. 1st time i step in the pantry and i noticed the colors alr so jus lucky lah. haha. plenty of food and everyone went home with a lucky draw prize! hahaha. not bad eh?? ;) i got a shoebag. :)

hahah..i realise my recent posts have been super long and detailed. long-winded little frog. tsk. lol. :p

i wonder...

2007-01-11T23:43:00.000+08:00

i wonder...

It's raining, it's pouring

My lovelife is boring me to tears,

after all these years

No sunshine, no moonlight,

no stardust, no sign of romance

We don't stand a chance

I always dreamed I'd find the perfect lover

But he turned out to be like every other man

I've loved, I've loved

Raining... Pouring...

There's nothing left for us here

And we won't waste another tear

If you've had enough,

don't put up with his stuff,

don't you do it

If you've had your fill,

get the check pay the bill,

you can do it

Tell him to just get out,

Nothing left to talk about

Pack his raincoat show him out

Just look him in the eye and simply shout:

Enough is enough

I can't go on, I can't go on no more no

Enough is enough

I want him out,

I want him out that door now

Enough is enough

That's enough

If you've reached the end,

don't pretend that is right when it's over

If the feeling is gone

don't think twice

just move on, get it over

Tell him to just get out,

say it clearly, spell it out:

Enough is enough is enough

I can't go on, I can't go on no more no

Enough is enough is enough

I always dreamed I'd found the perfect lover,

But he turned out to be like every other man

I've loved (I had no choice from the start)

I've loved (I've gotta listen to my heart)

I've loved (Tearing us apart)

No more tears (No more tears)

Enough is enough is enough is enough is enough is enough

I've had it, you've had it, she's had it, we've had it

Goodbye mister, goodbye, goodbye mister

Goodbye sugar

It's raining, it's pouring,

There's nothing left for us here

And we won't waste another tear

No more tears

Is enough is enough is enough is enough is enough is enough is enough

Is enough!

-"enough is enough" (donna summers)

Yesterday, a clear horizon

Now the clouds are rolling in, it's disappeared

The one thing that I've always believed in

It's strange how, right now, it all seems so unclear

I consult my soul

And it tells me that it knows

There's no doubt

One day I'm gonna fly

Gotta stand up

Dust myself off

Just for now

It's the end of the road

When something ends, something begins

For now it's just the end of the road

When someone loses, someone wins

or now it's just the end of the road

Don't get to fix it if it doesn't break

When you gotta leave, it makes you wanna stay

I know,

It's the end of the road

One line can change a story

So sometimes let the line just be unsaid

Pride only thinks about the glory

And just the "right now" and not the days ahead

I've held my breath

Walked on shells, hoped for the best

What the future holds, I don't know

I've gotta stand up

Dust myself off

Just for now

It's the end of the road

I've been traveling

Get the dust right off the windshield

No one gets the road map to their life

Cause life is so subjective

I think my pain, and I wanna protect it

Never blinds me, always reminds me

There's so much more to see

At the end of the road

When something ends, something begins

Is this the end of the road?

When someone loses, someone wins

Oh, it's just the end of the road

Yeah yeah yeah, it's the end of the road

Don't get to fix it if it doesn't break

When you gotta leave, makes you wanna stay

Come on, come on

(Now it's just the end of the road)

(It feels good just to let go)

-"it's the end of the road" (matt goss)
i think it's so meaningful to listen to these two songs back-to-back in this order. ok, i really dunno how to explain the 'meaningful-ness' of it so erm, interpret it on your own but jus don't jump to conclusions abt me based on your own interpretation. haha.

been thinking a lot since the nite out with tiq & queen, abt the stuff we talked & the memories that came back to me. hee. cos got a lot of time when travelling to & fro from office, and office work can be so boring that the mind starts wandering. haha. :p

i realise love/crushes can be such an addiction. pretty much like drug addiction, except with a much rosier hue. it's detrimental when the heartaches come and pple get so scared of being hurt again. and yet.....yet, we all love the feeling of being head-over-heels with someone that we're willing to do it all over again.

but that's not the end of the story. there's another 'yet' to come.

...yet we have to wait for the right person to come along. yup. i'm a strong believer in destiny...that the 'one' for you will always always be connected to you in some way, somehow. coincidences that seem too much of a coincidence, opportunities that jus seem to open up for you. i think i watch too many hongkong drama serials, like triumph in the skies, which i absolutely love!! :p

ok, back to what i was saying. yah, so i’m now stuck in this stage where i'm over the last crush, past the stage where being free-of-crushes made me feel good, into the stage where i wanna get back that gushing feeling. :) i guess it's partly cos i don't see my girlfrens so often nowadays and so loneliness gets to me sometimes. esp when travelling and i see couples. hmm. >.<

i really wonder when/where/how my next crush would appear. and since my first one was such a classic, vivid, unforgettable one, haha, it's not gonna be easy not to compare it with the next one. :p

hai. lol. :)

lookin' for some hot stuff baby tonight!!

2007-01-10T23:57:00.000+08:00

lookin' for some hot stuff baby tonight!!

work: nothing exciting except the 100+ page worth of lists of book titles (30+ on each page!) that my supervisor wanted me to check on the database. hur hur. i'm only done at the 4th page aft like 2 hours. -.-" damn tedious.

play: met up with my dearies, lay queen & tiq!! (san you were missed!! >.<) yea man, me and tiq, the 2 'virgin clubbers' decided to go for a nite out at the clubs with queen before her royal highness leaves for the US! (the great 'unknown!...haha) the plan was to meet for dinner before heading off to DXO. we were early and so we took a leisurely stroll to the esplanade and sat there to talk & talk & talk. haha. when we finally got up to go DXO, lo and behold, DXO was holding a private party and so we couldn't go in. haha.

maybe it was a blessing in disguise cos we then decided to go clarke quay and join any ladies' nite available. walked into the 'clinic', this doctor-themed club, and then sat for like 3 min before walking out again cos the bar wasn't open (that was at 10pm). then curiosity got the better of us and we all went over to check out MOS. haha. :p

WE WENT IN!!

hahah. yup, for free too cos it was ladies' nite. :) :) we spent like half an hour (not sure really cos it's quite easy to lose track of time in there) walking around, checking out the different rooms (& the toilets! ahah). I LOVE THE DISCO ROOM!!! man i couldn't resist the HUGE disco ball and disco music!! so aft that we sat down on the bar seats overlooking the dance floor. and jus stone there. haha. we didn't even order drinks! :p then waited for the dance floor to open before me and tiq jumped in and danced a bit. *WWHHEEEE!!!* had such a great time, esp when it's on such a low budget! (less than $3!!) lol. of cos, having work the next day & nagging mums, we had to leave jus as the party was warming up. but it was a good fun night. agreed. haha. :)

really love the feeling of sitting under the stars and jus talking our hearts out abt everything. school, work, guys being off to the army (all the best to you guys!), all the deep, dark (naughty!) secrets/gossips, and of cos, our all-time favourite, relationships. haha. it's been a really a long time since i sat down properly to recall the times when i was head-over-heels with i-know-who. ahah. i miss the feeling of being secretly happy over a crush. it jus seemed so easy to be happy. :) no crushes at the moment, so there's a sense of yearning i guess. >_<>

lovely night. the stars, the girls & me. san, wish you were here. :)

1st day at work.

2007-01-09T22:23:00.000+08:00

1st day at work.

yea man, in tiq's words...."welcome to the working world." lol.

ok, so i was feeling like a lost sheep in the office. and yes, i was late for work. haha. so -.-" rite. as if i didn't leave a bad enough impression yesterday. ahahhaha. but it wasn't that bad lah, cos i was abt 10min late and even if i had arrived on time, i would have clocked in late by the time my access card was issued to me. hahaha. heck lah. :p

i knew that there was a 15min break at 9.30am. but aft returning from the briefing for new staff, it didn't strike me that it was alr 9.30am. then i blur blur go and ask my colleague for any work to do.

and then she looked at me and said: "you starting now?"

i was like "yah, briefing over alr what...so start working lor."

"you not having your break? you have a 15min break at 9.30 leh. which is now."

-looks at watch: 9.37am-

"oh. oops. didn't realise the time"

"go to the pantry, make yourself some tea, aft the break then come to me again. i'm eating now also."

"hahaha. ok."

blur sheep rite. hahaha. had quite a nice lunch break with one of my colleagues, tong bao. i'm the youngest of the lot and the next youngest was her (probably in her late twenties), who even so, has alr worked there for 3 years! O.o yah, so anw, she was very nice to introduce me to the 'lunch culture'...like where to eat and stuff. :)

and guess what. aft returning from lunch, it was discovered that the electricity to my workstation (and the entire row) had been cut off. due to the renovation works going on since the office moved here only abt a month ago. hahah. so everyone was slacking around aft lunch. so much for the welcome to the working world. how amusing. am not calling my workstation my 'table' yet cos mine's not ready. i'm like sitting at someone else's table for 2 days, then shifting to another's table for the next 2 days, before my table is ready next week. i feel like a nomad. haha. :p

as for the nightmare typing test, it was, as what the head said, the hardest thing that anyone would have to type so turns out i didn't perform that badly. and the jobs that i had to do so far were managable. there's still the translation to do, but i had my trusty dictionary with me and the hanyupinyin of the words were on the book details so that made life a whole lot easier. :)

alrighty. enough abt work. time to sleep. tmr's another day. ahha. :p

hell, heaven, and back to earth.

2007-01-08T23:55:00.000+08:00

to hell, to heaven, and tossed back to earth.

went for my job interview today....which was pretty ok. EXCEPT FOR THE BLOODY TYPING TEST. hahah. partly naive on my part in hoping that the interview was gonna be conducted in english even tho i know that was the chinese dept....haha, but i was still prepared for it being in chinese so that was ok. the typing test didn't come as a surprise. but the problem was that the head of dept gave me a passage of traditional chinese words, claimed that it was a SHORT paragraph and told me to type it out. now, the chinese input function of windows XP doesn't support traditional chinese so it's as good as translating the traditional form to the simplified chinese form. and it didn't help that i had difficulties adjusting to the chinese input program and so.....

it took me 15min for the 1st 4 characters. damn sad case lah. -.-"

haha. so anyway, i was getting really irritated cos firstly it was taking way too long to type, and secondly, the dictionary that they provided me with was quite useless cos it doesn't help with the translation and has limited words. thirdly, i was rushing down to suntec for mass dance!!! haha. i got so fed up i told the staff that i had to leave aft typing only half of the passage. by which 45min had alr past!! (yes i was that slow.) :p so much for leaving a good 1st impression but it didn't really matter i guess cos they were so desperate to fill the vacancy that they gave me the job even before giving me the typing test. haha. a bit pointless but the head jus said she wanted to test my range of vocab only. -.-"

and so that was my 'hell' for today.

aft that i went down to suntec to meet my dear 22nds councillors for mass dance!! *whee* this year the event was made official, so the DJ was announcing all our dances. pretty cool. except that the DJ inserted a random song in between every dance so sometimes felt that the rhythm was broken. nonetheless it was nice. :) must say that there seems to be fewer pple this year. and it's not solely my own opinion. anyway, me, as usual, would get horrendously high on the potent mix of 'air + mass dance' and so this time around i went mad enough to ask chris thong (when he was with his frens!) for a photo even tho he totally doesn't know me. hahah. :p i can only be thankful that this year's suntec mass dance is not as emotional for me as the last two. :)

and so that was my 'heaven' for today.

what would be earth then? the reality that hits me that i'm starting work tmr. yes. TMR. hellooo expo. hahaha. gosh, so far. -.-" wish me luck. :p

...train of events.

2007-01-07T23:15:00.000+08:00

...train of events.

friday:

crashed O1 again for a short mass dance session. damn, missed the friendship dance part. so it was only 'i wan you'. left the sch quite soon aft cos i had my sec 4 class gathering to attend. (met tiq at novena!! *surprise!*) was good to see some of my old classmates again, esp those whom i haven't seen for 2 years, and those who came back from overseas. must say there was a decent no. of pple who turned up. :) hahaha....but class gatherings being class gatherings, somehow pple jus end up back in their own little cliques. besides, i never eat much at bbqs so went off on a short 'rendezvous' with my dearie. :p but kudos to our dear class reps who took the effort to organise it lah. :) hope the next one's better!

saturday:

went out with tiq!! :) heehee...half of the 'girly gang' (tiq's term!). so we sat down at far east plaza and talked abt SO many things over lunch (which consisted of roti john & pattaya rice :p). our bizarre dreams (*secret!*), updates on what each other & the councillors are up to, talking abt girls' stuff (as usual)...lol. was really nice to talk to someone like that aft so long. :) then met up with her mum and sis to walk around and shop a bit.

upcoming:

job interview on mon!! erps. >_<

SUNTEC MASS DANCE ON MON!!!!!! *whee!!* :) :)

O1 && BTT!

2007-01-04T15:02:00.000+08:00

O1 && BTT!
went back to VJ with layqueen, grace, zi ni, shermaine yesterday to crash O1! haha. saw a few other year 3s like john & gang, jehn haur & gang also. :) ended up spending more time walking with zi ni at east coast park while the layqueen, grace and shermaine were blading. lol. then went back for mass dance session! fun fun! sure miss mass dancing, esp with the 22nds.

aft O1, had to rush down to the driving centre for my basic theory test...and i passed!! yay! haha...they allocated 50min for 50 qns and i was so bored cos i finished all the qns in 10min. not that i'm boasting...but pple who have done the test would agree with me that it's quite easy. lucky can leave early so i jus checked thru for abt another 15min then left liao. :p so anyway, it's now on to the final theory test and then to driving the real thing! haha.

btw, anybody interested in going down to the suntec mass dance pls let me know k? it's NOT on fri!! it's only tentatively scheduled to be on mon, 8th jan. i'll have to check with the juniors again. :)

2007!!

2007-01-01T00:01:00.000+08:00

2007!!

HAPPY NEW YEAR!! :) :)

(omg. the text editor is finally working again! great. now that means i'll have tons of old posts to re-format. -.-")

random but not-so-random thoughts/feelings

2006-12-30T01:10:00.000+08:00

random but not-so-random thoughts/feelings
so many things have been happening lately that i'm lazy to blog it all down. and yet sometimes the whole post comes to my mind and i find it wasted that i don't put it here. haha. so oh well, don't be surprised if you see back-dated posts popping up all of a sudden cos i may jus start rummaging thru my thoughts again for those days that i wanted to post but didn't. :p

and so tonight was team night. firstly, a job well done to the juniors, aside from fooling all the seniors and coaches into dressing in formal/evening wear. haha. liked the CD case you all did...very thoughtful and meaningful. :)

however, as with previous team nights, team gatherings, matches etc, i cannot help but get this whole rush of emotions that chokes me. yea, all the good ones & the bad ones too. ok, disclaimer first. if any junior, senior, or coach that chances upon this, this is my blog, a space for me to express my personal thoughts. i respect all of you by not saying this outright, but if you do know what i am refering to, then pls respect my feelings as well cos ultimately, my experience with this team is much different from the others. thank you.

aft tonight, i really felt like crying on someone's shoulder. (thks tiq for being there over the phone) not cos this was 'goodbye' with the team, but much as some of the pple were unable of let go of a loss, i have yet come to terms with my loss that came with the gain of this team. i would say it's a sense of unjust, to see the way some things are being done. understandable, yes, but i still cannot let go. so pardon me if i seem cold or unreasonable. i've tried my best to control myself these 2 years alr.

that being said, i don't think i harbour any ill-feelings towards the team. jus that i'm not as close to the team as i would have liked to be. must admit, i did feel a sense of betrayal during the team selection incident. some things that were said really hurt that time, tho in hindsight i have forgiven cos i can see that they weren't intentional. i was partly at fault perhaps, so that is rested and put behind me alr.

i seem a bit two-faced rite? ranting abt all the bad stuff jus aft team nite is over. don't worry, i haven't forgotten all the good times, the laughter, and the lovely feeling of winning as a team in front of the school. i merely wanna let out the burden of emotions that i can never let out in front of everyone.

there are times when pple say 'hey, look at what you've done!' and it seems so surreal to me. all i can say is that this team wasn't set up by me alone. :)

let it rain, let it rain, let it rain...

2006-12-25T22:09:00.000+08:00

let it rain, let it rain, let it rain...
well, it's been pretty much a wet christmas here. think somebody's decided to replace the snow with rain. haha. :p

anyway, a very Merry Christmas to one and all! hope everybody's had fun. :)

I'm back!! :)

2006-12-23T11:43:00.000+08:00

I'm back!! :)

title says all. lol. :p

upper-dee-dates!

2006-12-18T16:06:00.000+08:00

upper-dee-dates!
okie, jus a few short updates abt me. haha.

i cut my hair! short! so that's good bye long locks and hellooo funky punky hair! wah hah. :p

jus came home from watching 'open season' this morning. as expected, it's the usual kid-oriented style of animation. guess the most interesting part was the war against hunters part...which wasn't that much the focus of the story. i think the way the characters make use of the rabbits in the movie is even more hilarious. gosh, they toss rabbits like free! O.o lol.

i'll be off to sunway lagoon over the next few days so whoopee doo! haha. don't miss me pple! :p

start the ball rolling...

2006-12-16T14:34:00.000+08:00

start the ball rolling...
ok, so the stupid post text editor is still cranky. -.-"

i've been fortunate enough to catch some football action lately, first with my juniors' match against UWC on thurs and watching the finals of the men's football in the Asian games (iraq vs qatar).

brings back tons of memories i must say. (yes queen, i know i'm nostalgic) man, i sure miss the adrenaline rush when playing on the field. esp when whacking the ball as a striker. heh. :p playing on the field in the councillors' friendly was damn shiok. haha.

but watching the dynamics of the junior team and watching football games now sometimes also reminds me of stuff during my term in soccer that i'm not proud of, and questions whose answers i dare not ask for. sigh.

yea, i know i think too much. haha. :p

max macs.

2006-12-12T20:56:00.000+08:00

max macs.
today was rather interesting. followed my mum on a crew excursion out to the warehouse-cum-bakery of mcdonalds' (yup, my mum works at macs part-time. :p)

the warehouse was in different sections, each with a different temperature setting so as to store different stuff. and so the 1st room was slightly warmer than room temp, mainly for storing dry items, like the papers, uniforms etc. then the 2nd room was abt 15 degrees C i think, for the usual stuff you throw in the fridge. the 3rd was abt 2 degrees C, for stuff you throw in your freezer. THEN comes the shocker. the 4th room was a freakin' freezing -21 degrees C!! man, it's like you step inside and your clothes will freeze up also. stayed in there for 1 min max and then i couldn't take it anymore. additional clothes weren't supplied so i was only in my shirt & jeans. haha. san should know that i saw the subway cold cut trio prep sets in the 4th room. :p *brrr!!*

the bakery was, on the contrary, hot of cos. tons of conveyor belts all over the place. haha. pretty interesting to see all the baking stuff automated (try imagining burger buns being suctioned up from the baking tray & you'll be close). haha. pity they didn't allow photography so cannot show.

anyway, the stupid blogger refuses to load the text editor properly so i'm stuck with ugly grey posts on my blog. ugh. let's hope this thing gets fixed soon. there's so many things i've been wanting to blog abt but by the time i come around to sitting in front of the comp, i'm too lazy to do it. haha. :p

oh yea, good news (more for me lah): i jus switched to unlimited broadband for $22 a month! :) speed isn't that fast but at least it's unlimited. yay! haha. :D

<3

2006-12-09T23:29:00.000+08:00

<3
what a coincidence. i jus went for a relative's marriage solemnisation ceremony this morning. and i jus read off jasmine's & shikin's blogs that mr goh got married today too!

aww. how sweet. i always wonder at such events, how it'll be like when my turn comes around. hee hee. :p

[edit] met mr lee boon ann on the bus jus now (10/12). said he was going for miss hoo's wedding dinner. read off somewhere about ms chia getting married too...i think. :p apparently it's an auspicious period for marriages around this time. :)

post post prom post. err. yah. :p

2006-12-07T13:13:00.000+08:00

post post prom post. err. yah. :p

and so i arrived home at 3am this morning.

i'm lazy now to really talk abt yesterday's SDD (nothing much really) but to summarise it all up, SDD was:

flash flash flash flash flash flash flash flash flash flash flash flash flash flash flash flash flash flash flash flash flash flash flash flash flash flash flash flash flash flash flash flash flash flash flash flash flash flash flash flash flash flash flash flash flash flash flash flash flash

an 8-course dinner in really small portions

+ really loud speakers that can break eardrums

+ performances / pageant

+ a goodie bag

i think like everyone was blinded by all the camera flashes and deafened by the speakers already. haha. but most, if not all, looked really nice. :) and at least i pulled off my look better than i had expected. haha. not that i'm egoistic but i tend to be a bit self-conscious when dressing up in the 'girlish' kind of style. haha.

sigh. the size of my photos are SO big. damn hard to upload. anyone want to see my photos then ask me lah huh. hee. :p shall talk more abt SDD later on. :)

i hate this side of myself.

2006-12-04T22:41:00.000+08:00

i hate this side of myself.

i should stop being such a spoilt brat.
and stop being angry over petty little stuff.
especially when it concerns my good friends.
yea, i'm pissed alright...at myself.
hmph.

...mumbles to self.

2006-12-03T23:09:00.000+08:00

...mumbles to self.

the pple you wanna go out with are not free. ugh.
the person you don't wanna go out with is asking to go out with you. ugh.
the dates of your appointments are all crashed together. ugh.
how hard is it to plan a surprise for your friends. very. ugh.
you jus saw your dream shoe and it's too ex. ugh.
there's tons of things to rant abt but it's jus so...
ugh. ugh. ugh.

thunder? no, fireworks!

2006-12-01T20:25:00.000+08:00

thunder? no, fireworks!

as i'm typing this post, there's this rumbling sound in the sky that really sounds like thunder in a big thunderstorm. now here's the 'trick': there's no rain and no lightning!

haha...ok lah, this is so dumb. like read the title also will know what the heck am i talking abt alr. haha. but anyway, the rumbling sounds are the fireworks over at the opening ceremony of Vivocity!! :)

SO. firstly, it goes to show jus how NEAR i stay to Vivocity. (sorry, can't help harping on it cos it's jus abt the only advantage that i have over all the folks who live so near to VJ. :p) and even tho i'm so near, i didn't go down to the opening ceremony cos there is probably TONS of pple there and besides, i've been down there like almost every weekend. can like tell pple where and what are the shops alr. haha. think it was tiq who called me a Vivocity promoter. :p

ok, enough sprouting nonsense. froggie out. :)

BTT/FTT, here i come! :)

2006-11-28T16:13:00.000+08:00

BTT/FTT, here i come! :)

haha...YAY!! i jus came back from registering for my Basic Theory Test and Final Theory Test (stupid names) but heck the names, it means i'm gonna start learning how to drive! :) haha. it's super expensive lah...at least that's how i see it. hai, i think they're trying to deter pple from learning how to drive so that there'll be fewer folks on the roads, fewer cars on the roads, less congestion, less negative externalies etc etc. ah yes, econs is rushing back again. hahaha.

*yawns* still a bit tired from yesterday. cos went out to the zoo with my friends. haha. even met my 'long-lost' teacher there..which was such a pleasant surprise. pity one of my friends got injured while walking, so we had to push her around in a wheelchair the rest of the way and the sky decided to pour in the afternoon. but we also got a 'tour' in the zoo buggies en route to the medical centre and got to see the vet, & kitchen facilities of the zoo. :) now how cool is that. hahah.

haha. k k, my point was supposed to be that i was tired and so was supposed to stop blogging. :p yup, so till the next post then. (sounds odd but nvm.) :)

a year on.

2006-11-25T13:45:00.000+08:00

a year on.

Last Christmas

Do you remember when we fell in love
I gave you my heart
We were young and innocent then

But the very next day you gave it away
Do you remember how it all began

This year, to save me from tears
It just seemed like heaven so why did it end?

I'll give it to someone special

Once bitten and twice shy
Do you remember back in the fall

I keep my distance
We'd be together all day long

But just don't catch my eye
Do you remember us holding hands

Tell me baby do you recognise me?

In each other's eyes we'd stare
Well its been a year it doesn't surprise me

I wrapped it up and sent it

Do you remember the time when we fell in love
With a note saying "I love you" - I meant it
Do you remember the time When we first met
Now I know what a fool I've been
Do you remember the time when we fell in love
But if you kissed me now
Do you remember the time
I know you'll fool me again

A crowded room - Friends with tired eyes
Do you remember how we used to talk
I'm hiding from you, and your soul of ice
We'd stay on the phone at night till dawn
My God I thought you were someone to rely on
Do you remember all the things we said like
Me - I guess I was a shoulder to cry on
I love you so I'll never let you go

Face on her lover
Do you remember back in the spring
With a fire in her heart
Every morning birds would sing
A girl undercover.....she tore me apart

Do you remember those special times

Now I've found a real love

They'll just go on and on in the back of my mind
You'll never fool me again

Last Christmas

Those sweet memories

I gave you my heart

Will always be dear to me

But the very next day you gave it away

And girl no matter what was said

This year, to save me from tears

I will never forget what we had now baby

I'll give it to someone special

a post 16 days late.
intended for 9th nov 2006.
nonetheless, 25th nov is a significant day for this post.
perhaps a blessing that i missed 9th nov aft all.
cos on 2nd thoughts, today is perhaps the more suitable day to commemorate this.

haha.
for those who know the story,
don't worry.
it's jus the bittersweet memories that i wanna keep.
there's jus something in between these two songs that summarise my feelings so well.

bowled over.

2006-11-24T11:23:00.000+08:00

bowled over.

went bowling today as part of a family friend's birthday celebration. haha...was damn excited cos bowling is my absolute most favourite indoor sport. (floorball doesn't count cos it can be played outdoors also. haha.) all my bowling skills are self-taught so it ain't fastastic, but heh heh, still reasonably good against friends and family. :p

i played 6 games today, which if someone were to do the math, would be abt 120 over throws! O.o haha, of cos, my arms were a bit tired aft the whole thing. and if you noticed, i wrote 'ARMS'. yup, i can bowl with BOTH hands! :) definitely proven aft i scored 3 strikes (2 of which were consecutive) with my left hand, and 2 strikes (1 was a spare cos it was the 2nd throw) with my right. haha, that's why i could last 6 games throwing 8/9 pound balls. :p not bad eh? ;)

yesterday was also a blast, going out with my dearie and settling my christmas presents for my good 'ol buddies. :) i see my schedule starting to get filled up with all sorts of appointments. hahaha. tomorrow's gonna be another day out again. whee. definitely more tiring than A levels, but of cos there's no debate on which is more enjoyable. :p

...3...2...1.

2006-11-23T23:50:00.000+08:00

...3...2...1.

IT'S OVER...

ALREADY!!!

(now what. hahaha. :p)

countdown...

2006-11-22T21:30:00.000+08:00

countdown...

IT'S ALL GONNA BE OVER........

soon. (24 more hrs)

half-way through baby!

2006-11-10T13:22:00.000+08:00

half-way through baby!

phew! i'm done so far with GP, maths (yay!), bio pp 2, and chem pp 3....that's 6 out of 13 papers! whoopee! think all the papers with the exception of chem was ookkaayy lah. i mean, can't really tell if careless mistakes have made, whether the points written are what the examiners are looking for so heck lah. as long as can write something then can lah. haha. :p

san and eq have adopted a bunnyherolabs pet on their blogs, a pig & hamster respectively. very cute, actually i've seen these pets before, just that i didn't have a blog earlier and the website didn't have frogs up for adoption so i thought i'd wait. anyway, even though they still don't have frogs, i've decided to take the turtle cos it's so cute and interactive. jus click on the 'little' word below and scroll down to play with it! :) oh, but don't scroll the page once you've activated the control cos it'll go cranky for some reason, which in that case jus click the word 'little' again. :) to play with it, move your mouse around to see red arrows, then click to tell my turtle to go underwater or come back up on the stone. the feeding worms can only be used underwater, so jus click on the water with the worm and my turtle will respond. AND try clicking on its head too! lol. :)

also, if you've noticed, the homepage of my blog has a little santa sleigh with well-wishes from me. hehe. also koped from the bunnyherolabs website. (click refresh to see the little thing if you've missed it!) was intending to put it there for christmas but since most of the pple reading this blog are probably doing A levels now, might as well use it as my 'good luck' messenger 1st before i change it to 'merry christmas'! haha. :p

ooo...i jus found a website that has a pet froggy up for adoption! but then it's not interactive so not very fun. :( nvm, i think my turtle will do jus fine. hee. must be responsible pet owner. lol. still exploring around to check out some cool html code effects to add on here. haha. i think very soon this place is gonna be overloaded with html effects. holiday season lah, deco deco a bit. haha. check out the way cool counter on the tag page! (click 'a' below) pardon the slight messy-ness of the blog right now. shall find time later on to sort things out. :p

haha...jus realise what a long post i've written. time to go study alr, or rather to go piah econs. haha. haven't touched econs yet man. erps. :p happy mugging and all the best everybody! :)

this is it.

2006-11-01T19:04:00.000+08:00

this is it.

it's jus the thought of it being "the final one" that gets me somewhat jittery, no matter how confident (or the lack of it :p) i am of any paper. don't get me wrong tho, i'm not in any state of panic attacks. :)

but yup, this is IT. tmr's officially the start of the A levels, with GP up first of cos. peak of the roller coaster ride... jus downhill from here on out! lol.

all the best to everyone, especially to my dearies! :) we're all in this together and we'll all pull through together, no matter where we are. :D

movie animania!

2006-10-29T23:05:00.000+08:00

movie animania!

gosh, i wanna watch:

- flushed away (opens 3rd nov!)

- happy feet (opens 23rd nov!)

- open season (opens 30th nov!)

and yes, they're all animation movies. it wouldn't come as a surprise to those who know me close enough. :) thank goodness happy feet opens exactly on the day i end my A level exams. i have a feeling i'll miss 'flushed away' tho. hai. all the good movies jus have to be released at the wrong times. haha. :p alrighty, gotta hunt pple down to watch the other 2 animations with me.

the little story of 3 little angels. :)

2006-10-25T22:36:00.000+08:00

the little story of 3 little angels. :)

This is a story of how 1 good turn leads to another. It's a really small story, involving jus 3 pple. But i think it is indeed an amazing feeling for sth like this to happen to myself, or anybody, in real life.

And so the story starts with me, this morning, thinking abt how freezing cold LT 5 would be when i would be taking my 3hr chem mock pp 3 later in the day. Remembering that tiq had forgotten to bring her jacket during the last maths mock pp (before which she had luckily found a jacket in the council room), i thought i'd jus send a reminder for her to bring it. :) And so i thought: that's that. nothing else.

However, i was proven wrong later in the day. Apparently tiq had more need of the jacket than i had expected. Not only did the jacket keep her warm during the mock pp (where she was sitting at the froz-zone, ie, bottom of the LT), it came in useful aft the pp cos the sky decided to pour some torrential rain. I'm not the kind to boast, but i jus felt really blessed and thankful to be able to help a friend so much (unexpectedly) with such a small gesture. :)

of cos, as i said earlier, the story involved 3 pple, so it can't possibly end here. Tiq had offered san some pizza jus aft the chem pp. San ate it up, left for the hostel, and aft that, tiq and i left sch as well. who'd thought that i would receive a msg from san later, saying that the hostel had run out of food, and the pizza had helped sustain her. :)

all this in the span of a day. the title of this post was an inspiration of what tiq said. abt how i was like a little angel to her today, with wands and what-nots. well, at least that's what i think she said. haha. but hey, tiq turned out to be a little angel herself to san! see, this is called "passing on the goodness!" :) so san ah, tell me if you become a little angel to someone else so that we can continue expanding this story. :)

of cos, anyone reading this is entitled to start their own 'little angel' stories. and share them with me if you like! :) have fun!

hmm...

2006-10-15T18:24:00.000+08:00

hmm...

i jus realised sth yesterday, aft open house. that the same 'phenomenon' at last year's open house has struck again this year. thought nth of it actually, but somehow fate or coincidence has its ways aft that. what can i say. haha.

guess i can only wonder. :p

Overdriven!

2006-10-14T19:25:00.000+08:00

Overdriven!

since 9pm yesterday till 3pm today, it's been a full 18 hours of non-stop dancing action! woots! first up was watching the hip-hop dance competition, Overdrive, with san at the explanade and boy, it was more than worth our $20 student price tickets. the dances were good, the music was loud and at the front row seat that we were, we definitely had a good close-up view of WADE ROBSON!! for the unenlightened, wade's this really HAWT internationally famous choreographer who's worked for Michael Jackson, Brit Spears & NSYNC and did i mention? he's damn HAWT!! :p watching him dance can really drive girls crazy. yea yea, i was gushing a lot over him also but not as bad alr...someone down our row in the middle almost hyperventilated. haha. :p but yes, he's THAT hot. love his dance moves. :)

as for today, it's the annual VJC open house!! :) ah, brings back a lot of memories from last year's council event. must say this year's theme was very strong and the junior council brought it out very well. so, i reached sch before the opening ceremony, in my SCGS uniform, much to shock of the juniors who knew me. hahah. the look on their face damn funny. i wasn't the only one tho, from the 22nds, shikin & tiq came in cedar and rgs uniform respectively, along with a few seniors from odac.

of cos, the seniors are back for only 1 main highlight: MASS DANCE!! and today alone, we danced 6 at the opening ceremony, 3 at each of the 2 showcase sessions, and 7 at the closing ceremony, which makes it a max 19 mass dances in a day for the seniors, like me, who were there since the opening ceremony. gosh, really shag until can die. haha. but it's worth it, esp when i finally can dance friendship dance with a good partner like daniel. very rare to find a good guy to dance with since they all disappear mysteriously once the music starts. haha. :) :)

that's it for now. still recovering from the mass dances. head feels heavy. haha. :p

viva la vivo!

2006-10-08T21:25:00.000+08:00

viva la vivo!

jus returned from exploring vivocity, which in case you didn't know, is the next shopping centre to have its grand opening on 1st dec '06. anyway, it's really HUGE. LIKE VERY HUGE. it's bigger than the whole of suntec put together, and has twice the number of shops (300) than ngee ann city. go figure. haha.

quite a cool place, somewhat like marina square, esplanade and paragon all crashed together but still distinctively different. plus, you might jus find your fav shop that has moved from elsewhere...here! marche, probably from HMV, is in there, together with a haagen daz ice-cream shop that might have moved from tangs orchard. there's plenty of high-end shopping around here also. like even though there's only about 40% of the shops open now, the shop listing is enough to drive you crazy. provided you're a shoppaholic. haha. :p

besides the shopping, vivocity's got a sky park and a pretty funky kid's playground. on the outside facing sentosa island is somewhat like the esplanade front where you can walk along the side of the river and enjoy the breeze. quite a few art sculptures around to look at and take photo with too. heh. :) and cos today's the 1st day it's open to public, the mall hired some part-time folks to dress up in police & other funny characters to guide pple around. they even had pple on those cool 2-wheel moving 'scooters'. dunno what they're actually called so check it out for yourself when you go there lah. haha.

jus realised that this post has been like some advertisement for vivocity but oh what the heck. good places are good stuff to share. esp when it's SO near my home. hee hee. anyone going down can call me along ah! :p

shopping 101

2006-10-04T21:20:00.000+08:00

shopping 101

went out shopping with my buddy today, and watched miami vice as well. the movie was, well, a bit graphical on the violent side, peppered with a few erotic scenes. i'm surprised it's rated NC16. lol. maybe i'm conservative or sth lah.

was walking down orchard road, lo & behold we meet my daddy! apparently he knocked off from work early and was down at orchard to go to the handphone shop. and as if it wasn't shocking enough to meet him along the road, we met him again when we took a bus from orchard to somerset and he sat directly opposite us on the facing seats on the bus!! like, omg. O.o haha.

anyway, that being said, this is probably the last of my buddy-buddy outings from now till aft the A levels. it's always always very very fun to go out with me buddy. hai. gotta wait till a long long time before we can go out and have fun again. blah.

centuria!

2006-10-01T12:10:00.000+08:00

centuria!

jus for the sake of this being the 100th post on my blog, i might as well pick a nice day to post it...

HAPPY CHILDREN'S DAY!!

lol. the little things that i do to make my somewhat empty life now a bit more colourful. :)

>_<

2006-09-29T15:11:00.000+08:00

>_<

JC life, i swear, is a 2-year long recurring nightmare.

I'm jus hanging in the middle of nowhere, hanging by the grit of my teeth on pure faith & determination. yet there's an air of uncertainty, of fear perhaps.

emo. weak. crazy. stupid. whatever. either way it sucks.

summary of my 7-day post-prelim hols...

2006-09-27T18:22:00.000+08:00

summary of my 7-day post-prelim hols...

this is the cra-zee life that froggie has been living the past 7 days.

i've hop hop hopped at the following shopping places, in geographical order:

- people's park complex, chinatown

- pearl centre, chinatown

- OG, chinatown

- chinatown point

- tiong bahru plaza (X7)

- great world city

- queensway shopping centre

- raffles city

- citylink mall

- marina square

- suntec city

- bugis junction (X2)

- wisma atria (X2)

- ngee ann city (X2)

- lucky plaza

- far east plaza

- scotts shopping centre

- tangs

- wheelock place

- paragon

- heeren

- john little

- centrepoint (X2)

- le meridian shopping centre

- plaza singapura (X3)

- novena square

- united square

- toa payoh central

- junction 8, bishan

did i leave out any places? the brackets show the no. of times i went to the same place over the 7 days. hee, yes it's a lot a lot of places but i literally jus hopped in and out of a few of those places cos i was on a hunt for some specific stuff so yah, hop hop. haha. the few days of intense walking has kinda taken its toll on my legs. my right shin feels strained. tsk. so unfit. bah, but that didn't stop me from going back to sch to play floorball this morning. :p

lunch for 6 consecutive days was fast food, all macdonalds food except the day i went out with tiq, when we ate long john silver's. and out of the 5 macs meals, i ate 4 mcspicy burgers. haha. my mum works at tiong bahru plaza macs, that's why i'm there everyday for my lunch with her. :)

and YES! my 2nd attempt at cooking cod fish with lemon butter sauce was a much greater success yesterday. :) it's gonna be one of the dishes served on the table come next chinese new year reunion dinner. hee.

shopping alone can be quite fun actually. you don't have to wait to meet anyone, wait for them to go to the washroom, wait for them to finish looking at sth, etc. you can walk at your own pace, go anywhere without qualms and for someone like me, to go at top speed. hee. but of course, being alone means there's no one for second opinions, no one to restrict your spending, no one to share the funny stuff you see along the way, and no one to chat with. hai. I WANT MY SHOPPING BUDDIES!! :p

tmr's back-to-sch day. sigh. the only thing i'm looking forward to is replacing the juniors at morning duty since they are having their promos. (yes, i love my council!) haha. tennis gate duty i think. see me there! :p other than that, i think the other 'highlight' is that we're getting back our math paper which is like BLEAGH. what the heck lah. haha.

oh yea, frogs proliferating town alright...heh. :p

2006-09-25T18:19:00.000+08:00

oh yea, frog's proliferating town alright...heh. :p

today, little froggie hop hop hopped from

raffles city to

citylink to

marina square to

suntec city to

great world city to

bugis!

met a lot of familiar faces along the way as usual. hahaha...sounds like fun when it's listed out like that. i shall compile all the shopping places i've been during this post-prelim hols on wednesday or thursday. yea, i'm that crazy. :p

oh gosh.

2006-09-24T00:06:00.000+08:00

oh gosh.

ok, after yesterday's frenzy along orchard road, i went out with tiq today along orchard road again. slightly better though cos we were going at a much slower pace and looking at a lot of shops and stuff (makes you wonder what hyper speed i was going at ytd...lol) but it's a saturday so it was really crowded. but oh what the heck. crowds don't really bother me. most imptly at least tiq found sth she likes. :) hahah.

SO! i left the house at 12.30pm, and i returned only at like 11.30pm. freakin' 11 hours out. besides walking like a lot a lot of kilometres shopping, i made a few 100-metre dashes aft tiq left cos i had to settle some stuff before meeting my parents & relatives. plus i had to go up to my relatives' house aft shopping to help them out with some computer stuff. hence arriving home at some horribly late hour.

trashed. can't believe i'm starting to get a bit tired of going out. then again, when tmr comes around, i'll be itching to go out....yes, again. hahaha. :p

phew!

2006-09-22T18:13:00.000+08:00

phew!

wah, post-prelim is no joke man. yea, it's fun but damn tiring. hee. i've been flying all over the place trying to find material and resources for my project. today alone i spanned almost the whole of orchard road, from wisma to centrepoint, and also went to chinatown, queensway shopping centre and tiong bahru plaza. gotta make a trip to suntec over the weekend too.

tmr i'm going out prom-shopping with tiq at the orchard/cityhall area, so i'll be back there again. lol. happened to meet sheryl at taka gramophone today. damn surprised lah. hahaha. O.o met my sec sch lab technician, mr tang, at chinatown also. hee. i seem to be crashing into a lot of familiar faces cos these two weren't the only ones but i lazy to mention the rest here. :p

ugh. my internet's going at snail's pace again. so annoying. shall come back online later to see if things get any better.

unleash the animal within.

2006-09-21T22:59:00.000+08:00

unleash the animal within.

prelims are OVER!!! YYESSHH!! time to head out to town and party!!

shop eat play sleep shop eat play sleep (explore some new stuff) shop eat play sleep shop eat play sleep shop eat play sleep shop eat play sleep shop eat play sleep shop eat play sleep shop eat play sleep shop eat play sleep (explore some more new stuff) shop eat play sleep shop eat play sleep shop eat play sleep shop eat play sleep

waHAHAHA. now that's what i call a life. :)

post-prelim is jus a whole bullet of trains of events & things to do that come rushing your way. lol. meeting up with pple, going shopping to catch up, and my personal fav is starting work on personal projects. every year, i'll always do at least a few "projects" of my own, usually a lot more. they're generally craft stuff as gifts to pple, but occasionally i work on multimedia like video. :) card-making, ornamental stuff, surprise parties, small projects, big projects blah blah. in fact, i have one that i've kinda shelved cos it was too big a task - making my own x'mas tree. the materials are all still in my room, jus waiting for the chance for me to work on it again.

currently embarking on a new one, pretty huge with a big price tag to it also. hope i can pull this one off successfully in time before A levels. hee. oh but before that big one, i actually attempted cooking a dish for dinner today! lol. cod fish with lemon butter sauce. this coming from a girl whose best attempts at cooking are only scrambled eggs & spagetti. hahah. but all in all, it didn't turn out too badly. the fish was cooked jus right, and the sauce was absolutely fragrant! only problem was that it was too oily too. hahah. till next time to correct that. :p

mid-prelim breather!

2006-09-16T12:54:00.001+08:00

mid-prelim breather!

warning: rants and nonsensical blabbering ahead. proceed with caution. :p

alright, the 1st week of prelims is OVER! that's like 6 papers down and 5 more to go (of which 3 are mcq. :)) yes, so let's start from the beginning:

1st paper was bio2 on monday, and what a better way to screw up the prelims by thinking that it was bio1 all throughout the sept hols. -.-" it was only like sat night that i realised it was PAPER 2 which is structured & essay and not mcq. like omg. and i crammed like half the bio syllabus in 2 days. ugh. then i made it worse cos there was so little time for the paper and i took so long for the questions that when i finally started on the essay section (write 2 20-mark essays), the teacher announced that there was 15min left. like WOW. apparently everyone else had insufficient time so hopefully everyone's the same on average. (yah, i wish!) haha.

on the same day was maths1, which is like my cursed subject or sth. as usual, it was more of a flip-dunno, flip-dunno kind of paper. basically screwed up also lah, considering i couldn't even do some of the 1-mark, 2-mark questions. my best bet is probably the 5-mark numerical methods question. haha. one of my classmates left even before the paper was halfway through. made me so tempted to give up also. but of cos i didn't. so there goes my 1st day of prelims, which left me so utterly disappointed, depressed and trashed that i had a good mind to give up A levels altogether. considering the next day was chem3 (essay), which i haven't studied for yet, things really looked bleak.

but surprise surprise, chem3 turned out to be a moral booster. ok, don't compare me against those S paper, chem-sure-get-A kind of students. given the fact that i have consistently failed chem, this was like one of the best chem essay papers i've done. not sure if the answers are correct but at least i get to write sth down. the previous papers were all blanks (like math). haha. then again, 2 days later, whatever 'extra' marks that i could have gotten in chem3 was eroded away in chem2. guess i'm back to square one. but at least it boosted my moral at the crucial time. :p

econ3 was on the same day as chem 2, ie thursday. so aft the bad chem2 paper, me and tiq went to macs for breakfast to cheer ourselves up 1st. haha. studying econ with eq, queen, grace, tiq, and some other 22nds in the council room was quite fun and fruitful. we were applying econs to like everything else not linked to econs. haha. econ3 was quite ok, and i thought it was quite good that i actually managed to finish the 3 essays to reasonable length in the time allocated (45min per essay). :) another satisfying paper. jus hope the teachers think the same way as me. :p ah yes, i forgot, some fella left the handphone on loud mode, and some fella kept calling throughout the 2hr 45min paper, resulting in an annoying non-stop ringing in the hall. ugh, wth. dunno why the teachers only chose to identify and bring the bag away only in the last 2 min of the exam. -.-"

next day was maths2, which included stats. section A on pure maths was ok, i thought. it was more of section D on stats that really stumped me. (that same classmate of mine walked out halfway again. :p) but oh well, i've been stumped by maths so many times that it doesn't seem surprising. haha. aft all, screwed up maths1 alr, plus even if i thought i did ok, the teachers seem to think otherwise. :p

so that's that for this week. bulk of next week's paper is econ2 (drq & case study), and bio3, which is the same as bio2 but with the option topic. gulp. haha. that reminds me, i ought to be mugging now. :p

slipping into a state of conscious unconsciousness

2006-09-08T19:40:00.000+08:00

slipping into a state of conscious unconsciousness

a state of the mind & body after mugging where i dunno what i'm doing and why i'm doing it. side effects include heavy heads along, with trashing headaches. it's hard to get to sleep at night cos even tho i'm mentally tired, the mind is trained to keep going, pretty much blindly. sit, stare, mind blank. i know i have to continue mugging cos i'm so far back in my revision, but it's quite impossible to continue aft a long day of mugging alr. 3 quarters through with econs, one-third through bio, and neither here nor there with chem & maths.

robot-like? perhaps. i'm having trouble comprehending when someone starts talking to me alr. sometimes i don't even hear them. the blank silence in my head is deafening.

pause for a while...& spend a penny on your thoughts

2006-09-05T22:35:00.000+08:00

pause for a while...& spend a penny on your thoughts

i should think most pple would have read/heard the news that steve irwin has passed away after an attack from a sting ray during one of his filmings. the news may have come from down under, which isn't exactly very near to us, but it has certainly affected quite a number of pple. i've found abt 7 or 8 pple on my msn contacts who have put the little turtle there in memory of him. like me, i believe most of us felt that it's really a pity that such an unfortunate event happened.

it's not the first time where a famous personality has passed away in such a heart-wretching manner that i've heard or seen but everytime sth like this happens, it makes me stop and think abt what i'm doing with my life, and jus how vulnerable it can be sometimes. yea, there may be pple out there thinking that i think too much, that i over-worry, or jus plain emotional. it's ok, i know that those who choose to spend a penny on their thoughts like me know that there's some greater insight to be gained from it.

i don't exactly advocate questions like "if you could live for only 1 more week, what would you do?" no, these only make us pessimistic abt life and only show us what we alr value. what is more impt is appreciating things we have overlooked, and showing gratefulness for what we have that we cherish. continuing to live life to the fullest, without regrets. sure, for us muggers now, we probably think it's a crappy life (i think so too!), nth great worth remembering, sth that we jus can't wait to get over with. but maybe, jus maybe, it will lead to sth good, sth great, someone that will impact lives of many in one way or another.

as most examples of the passing of a famous person show, there'll be more pple appreciating them, idolising them, only aft they are gone. steve irwin himself has be criticised and shoved into many controversial yet trivial matters countless times and yet the world comes together to mourn for someone who has no doubt contributed much to conservation efforts. only the narrow-minded would mind the little mistakes that a person has done.

so go ahead, (before it's too late!) show your gratitute and appreciation to someone today! forgive & forget the bad stuff... remember, share & cherish the good times together! :) :)

Happy Teachers' Day!

2006-09-01T19:07:00.000+08:00

Happy Teachers' Day!

for the 1st time in my entire 14 years of schooling have i not prepared anything for any teacher for teachers' day. on top of that, i didn't even return to my pri nor sec sch. hai, the whole prelim-mugging & video-editing business has pretty much prevented me from doing so. it is a BIG thing that i didn't do anything cos teachers' day has been my excuse for going on an island-wide sch tour to visit my teachers not only at my own schools, but those who have transferred out to other schools too. yup, that's how loyal i am to the pple who have made huge differences in my life. at least i sent out a happy teachers' day msg to all my teacher-friends this morning. :) (hey, i'm fair to all of them ok? :p)

well, the only other thing i did was to go back to VJ ytd to join in the teachers' celebrations cos i heard of some interesting programmes by the teachers. was a bit surprised to see so many seniors back in sch tho. hee. i kinda dragged san back to sch to accompany me. :p dunno abt her but i thought it was quite worth it to come back jus for the celebrations. the teachers-in-disguise game alone was good enough. my goodness, the biggest shocker of all was to see mr. seet dressed as miss rajan. sufficient to leave the sch screaming & laughing for a full 3 min or so. lol. they even included mrs chan and miss jancy, which livened up the thing quite a bit. the game was so 'controversial', it made christine say this which i thought was really funny: "omg. what in the world is VJ doing to its male teachers?!" lol. yea, i wonder too.

the other highlight was mr tan yh singing some hokkien song on stage with the rest of the pe dept as dancers. haha. some of the guys were wearing wigs. :p quite nice to see the pe dept in white tops & denim for a change. the female teachers looked quite hot. heh. :p other good stuff were the prank videos (rmb last yr's one? :p) & the skit put up by the new teachers, which i thought was good effort on their part tho i dunno them. :) the rest of the programme was either ookkayy lah, or jus plain -.-". haha. oh yes, and must complain abt the year 1s: why no mass dance??!! ugh.

jus found 2 pictures of myself on cosiety taken during national day. haha. damn funny. haven't seen some people for some time alr. quite sad leh. bah. everyone's mugging. i haven't been eating well & feeling damn sian these few days. bleah. i think the subconscious stress is getting to me. :( anyway, here's wishing all teachers a Happy Teachers' Day! :)

wishes, dreams & thank yous.

2006-08-27T13:21:00.000+08:00

wishes, dreams & thank yous.

jus updated my wishlist on the blog cos i realised most of them have been fulfilled. i'd say much earlier than i had expected. heh. i've added on some new stuff as well, but pls don't be mistaken that i'm a materialistic freak. i'm quite thankful with the stuff i have really, and for those who know me, i can use a bag/wallet/whatever till it's like super old & unusable cos i'm more sentimental than materialistic. :p in fact, like half of my wishlist now is quite unmaterialistic, & only time can tell if i'll get it eventually. yup. for those who don't know, ADM refers to the school of art, design & media @ NTU where i intend to take a degree in animation. the pinnacle studio is the uber cool video-editing program good for me to produce a nice portfolio video to get me into ADM. lol. :p

as for my previous wishlist, yea, i've gotta admit it was quite a materialistic one. heh. BUT it's mainly cos of SDD. the new clothes, fashion accessories, and sponsor for my SDD '06 were all settled by my dear godma (yea, like some fairy godma! :)). she bought me my prom gown, AND A PAIR OF HARRY MASON DESIGNER EARRINGS!! *jumps around in excitement* scroll below to see a pic of it...cool huh? it's like close to $50 a pair lah! O.o but it's also one of the prettiest things i've ever had. :) man, i can't thank her enough & i can't wait for SDD!

i've gotta thank hwei san too for finding the Chicago soundtrack for me so that i can download it into my mp3 player. the little things & thoughts matter to me too. :) now off to try and achieve my unfulfilled wish of passing 4 'A' level subjects. hahah. :p

Breaking headlines that will rock the solar system! (puns intended) :p

2006-08-25T18:23:00.000+08:00

Breaking headlines that will rock the solar system!

(puns intended) :p

if you haven't alr heard, Pluto (no, not the dog), has been stripped of its status as the ninth planet in our solar system. some top astronomical body (Int'l Astronomical Union) held this huge meeting to debate and take a vote on its fate (yea, what a big fuss over a rock that's waay out of our reach...-.-") and it's now classified as a 'dwarf planet', along with a few other rocks that astronomists have found to have similar masses as Pluto. yea, so all you pple out there who have done some astro-science before, pls fine-tune and update your info. our solar system now officially has only 8 classical planets. heh. :p

took this off an article on the Yahoo! AP news: "Pluto and objects like it will be known as "dwarf planets," which raised some thorny questions about semantics: If a raincoat is still a coat, and a cell phone is still a phone, why isn't a dwarf planet still a planet?" haha. looks like there's gonna be some more debate & explaination over this issue. for those who are interested, the new definition of a planet is: a planet not only must orbit the sun and be large enough to assume a nearly round shape, but must "clear the neighborhood around its orbit."

anyway, i find it disturbing to think that the stuff we study today, esp in the science course, is decided by the whole lot of scientists out there who simply dictate what they think is right. it's ok if it's true, established facts like the planets revolving around the Sun and not the Earth that we are studying; but this whole debate of where to categorise Pluto under is jus sth that's based on the whims and fancies of the astronomists. damn, very soon scientists are gonna tell us that the amoeba doesn't belong to the animal kingdom! :p

1 stupid little vote that says: "oh, we don't think Pluto belongs to the solar system anymore!" and the whole world has to change their mindsets, their textbooks, their encyclopedias and their astronomical guidebooks. wonder if this has any effects on constellations. lol. probably not. tsk. the things pple do to 'change the world'. :p

cheesy bites!

2006-08-24T16:16:00.000+08:00

cheesy bites!

me, tiq and john went pizza hut today to eat the cheesy bites pizza! *yum* lol. tiq was craving for pizza so we accompanied her lah. if not she so poor thing wait for so long and nobody go eat pizza with her. :p the pizza was quite nice lah. i know i don't sound very convincing but yea i mean it. but it's one of those flavours where i personally feel that i can only enjoy it if i eat like a bit of it once in a long while. too much of it is jus too cheesy for me. heh. :p

lessons these days has been quite...well, interesting. there's like so many pple in sch, and yet so few in tutorials and lectures. all pon classes to go mug. tsk tsk. like got pple in the library from 8am-6pm, pple in the T-block classrooms from 4pm-10pm, pple in the concourse...aiyah, jus all over the place lah! i wouldn't exactly call it scary...but it makes those pple like me who go for every lesson everyday wonder if we are really stupid to actually go for lessons. ah heck. i abide by my own principles anyway. :p

but seriously, it sucks being one of the rare species who go for every lesson daily cos pple from the class will keep asking you to do things for them, help them check/collect stuff, ask you for answers, etc etc, cos they're not in sch to do it. highly irritating lah. i don't mind doing it once or twice but it's like wth lah, you don't wan to come to sch then bear the consequences yourself lah! hmph.

alrighty, 'nuff blogging. time to do some work. :) (oh yes, happy 6th month to me blog! :) :))

cue "pink panther theme song"!

2006-08-23T21:18:00.000+08:00

cue "pink panther theme song"!

(ba dum ba dum, ba dum, ba dum ba dum ba dum ba dum, ba dduumm....)

the prelims are lurking around somewhere...somewhere around the corner. my panther-spy instincts are telling me that things are not good. gotta reload my ammunitions. erps. >_<

viva le RAFAlution!

2006-08-14T17:03:00.000+08:00

viva le RAFAlution!

got the post title from a line i read in the New Paper today which i thought was really creative & nice. :) anyway, in case some pple out there have not already heard the news...

LIVERPOOL WON THE FA COMMUNITY SHIELD WITH A 2-1 GAME OVER chelsea!!!

:) :) :)

this so totally made my day. haha. should see the face on Sean when he came into the council room desperately wanting to know the results of the match...only to find out that he lost his bet that chelsea will win. lol. :p too bad, LIVERPOOL ROCKS. now let's see them keep up this winning streak in the Champions League and in the Premiership. haha. :p

down with the blues. down with the devils. the reds will reign for we will never walk alone! :)